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MARIA G
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Date Joined Oct 2004
Total Posts : 9
   Posted 10/20/2004 12:47 PM (GMT -7)   
HELLO EVERYONE, IM NEW HERE, BUT I HAVE VEIWED THIS SITE FOR 2YEARS ALREADY BEACUASE MY RECENLTY EX-FIANCE HAS CROHN'S DISEASE. SO I LOGGED ON TO HEAR AND FEEL WHAT HE WENT THROUGH SO THAT I CAN HELP HIM. WHEN I MET HIME ALMOST 2 1/2 YEARS AGO, WE TOOK A TRIP TO P/U MEDICINE, AND WE WERE THERE FOR 4 HOURS ,WHILE HE RECEIVED REMICADE, AFTER THAT HE COULD NOT BE SHY ANYMORE, HIS FAMILY TOLD ME THAT HE WAS ALWAYS AGAINST BELEIVING IN HIS DISEASE SO  I LEARNED AND HELPED IM IN EVERY WAY I CAN, THROUGH REMICADE SIDE EFFECTS, 6MP, FISTULA'S , ACHE AND PAINS, HEAD ACHES, DEPRESSION,PANIC ATTACKS, I WAS THERE WITH OPEN ARMS AND READY TO FIGHT THIS BATTLE WITH HIM FOREVER. LAST CHRISTMAS HE PRPOSED, I EXCEPTED, THEN I MOVED IN (MAYBE TOO QUICK) HE HAD BEEN ALONE LIVING FOR 10YEARS, 8 OUT OF THOSE 10 YEARS HE HAD CROHNS, KIDNEY STONES, PANIC ATTACKS, SOCIETY ANXIETY, THEN CAME ALONG MARIA, AFTER ALL OF THAT HE FOUND REMICADE TO BETTER HIM ALONG WITH 6MP, 2 MONTHS BEFORE I CAME ALONG HE BEGAN FEELING BETTER, (I DID NOT KNOW THIS) HE USED TO SLEEP BACKWARDS, AND CORRECTED HIM, I WAS HIS LEANING SHOULDER THROUGH PANIC ATTACKS. AFTER I MOVED IN, IT WAS DIFFERENT BECAUSE 30YEARS I LIVED IN A HOME, THEN I MOVE IN A BUILDING IT WAS JUST DIFFERENT, ALOS FOR MY EX BECAUSE HE NEVER HAD ANYONE THER 24/7. I COOKED EVRYNIGHT (I'M ITALIAN), CLEANED DID IT ALL WHILE PANNING FOR MAY 2005 WEDDING. THEN IN JULY HIS DAD(WHO ABANDONED) HIM AND HIS TWIN 25YRS AGO PASSED AWAY. SO I GUIDED HIM THROUGH THAT THEN IN AUG. IT'S LIKE LIGHTNING STRUCK AND HE NEEDED TIME ALONE, HE SAID HE MISSED OUT ON A LOT(HE IS 36YRS OLD) HE DID NOT WANT GET MARRIED. WELL, I WENT HOME 1/2 OF MY STUFF STILL THERE. ANYWAY WE WORK ACROSS FROM EACHOTHER AS WELL. BUT, I TRAMATIZED MY BODY THROUGH ALL OF THIS THAT I'M NOW DEPRESSED, IM ON XANEX FOR ANXIETY THAT WHEN I TALK TO HIM MY COMES OUT OF MY EARS, I SHAKE LIKE A WET DOG, ITS SCAREY, MY KNEES GET NUMB AND THEN I CANOT TALK, ALONG WITH XANEX THE DR. GAVE ME LEXAPRO, I JUST STARTED THAT. SO YOU SEE I'M MESSED UP, IM ALONE,EMPTY HEARTED, MY 1,000 TEAR DROPS = SUCH SORROW FOR MY SELF THAT I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO. I DID S/W SOME ONE, THEY DIDNT HELP. BUT THIS SITE BRINGS ME COMFORT. THANK YOU. SORRY FOR THE LONG INTRODUCTION. PLEASE RESPOND

AuSsieG1rL
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Date Joined Sep 2004
Total Posts : 62
   Posted 10/20/2004 1:32 PM (GMT -7)   
I'm sorry. I'm guessing you and he still work together from what you've said? I was on Lexapro and let me tell ya..... it wasn't a pretty pic. It made me more depressed. I was put on it around my junior or senior yr in high school and I'm now a sophomore in college. I stayed on it only a few months b/c I could tell it wasn't right for me. I don't know, though; maybe it'll work for you. I don't know what I suffer from anymore. I mean, technically speaking, I supposedly have Bipolar but I and everyone else who knows me, and knows me well, don't believe it as well as the mitigating circumstances in which the diagnosis was given. I, too, stumbled upon this site when I was looking up anything and everything I could get my hands on with Fibromyalgia because my best friend has it and is going through a really difficult time (temporary disability). I like this site, for the most part, and it helps a lot as well. With your ex-fiance it happened Aug. 2004, right? That id horrible! If you need to "vent," or whatever, I'm usually reading and/or posting quite often every day since there isn't much for me to do anyways except to be on the net. Just give me a holla or something ^_^

Hugs,
AuSsieG1rL

Post Edited (AuSsieG1rL) : 10/20/2004 2:45:16 PM (GMT-6)


nikki100
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Date Joined Oct 2004
Total Posts : 5
   Posted 10/20/2004 3:26 PM (GMT -7)   
maria
im very sorry that you are hurting, im not on any thing because i havent told anyone what im going through, so apart from this message board (which i am new to) i have really kept myself to myself but if you ever need anyone to talk to then i am here because i also check the message boards everyday and i would be happy to listen to anything you are going through.

hopefully talk to you soon
nikki x

JohnD
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Date Joined Aug 2004
Total Posts : 472
   Posted 10/21/2004 5:24 AM (GMT -7)   
MARIA G,
sounds like you might want to discuss changeing your meds with your doctor. sometimes you have to go threw a few to find something that works well for you.
I have Crohn's, so i know all the stress you were going threw........and it's common, as i've come to learn, many of us crohnies have alot of issues......I am very sorry your going threw this very ruff time right now......i hope you get to feeling better soon.....
I did had trouble with a few meds for depression before i found one that worked well for me......btw i'm on welbutrin xl and busbar.....sorry about how horrable my spelling is....never was my strong suite............take care .....JohnD
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