Sweetie, God (Spirit) easily forgives us for our mistakes. What takes so long and hurts so bad is that we do not forgive ourselves so easily. Learn your lesson and on with your life. about no medication, please go to a free clinic or health clinic in your area. The above advice about reduced or free meds is correct. Do not neglect your health. You have to be in good shape to take good care of the precious one! Believe me, no one here will beat you up about anything, this is a good supportive group, and have helped me through so really bad times.
I hope today the sun is shining in your world . Everyone has given you good advice. We all make mistakes, if you are smart, you do not keep repeating them.