Jamie you are not an idiot. We all make mistakes as we are human. Please give yourself permission to stuff up now and then- hang in there and know that we are here for you.
Jamiee, you hit a bump in the road. When I do that, what is it you always tell me? Now apply that to yourself. Sending good vibes your way. You help all of us so much, I hope today finds you feelings better, go forward, stop looking back. We are not perfect, never will be, each day just keep trying to do the right thing for yourself and those around you that you need.