LOST IN DEPRESSION

Will the depression and anxiety ever go away
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Do U think were living in hell now and when we die it's better - 0.0%
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I take lexapro seroquel and klonopin is there something better that making U feel like your old self - 0.0%
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What do U think about me going back to work in the state I'm in - 0.0%
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I'm sick of my kids seeing me this way, is there a way I can hide it, I try but it doesn't work, I think they can read me - 0.0%
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HELP HELP HELP HELP HELP - 100.0%

 
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realife
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Date Joined Oct 2009
Total Posts : 77
   Posted 10/28/2009 5:39 PM (GMT -7)   
shakehead  I don't know what to do anymore, it seems like I'm just lost in this big jungle of a world I live in. I have become scared to leave the house, and the only time I get dressed or comb my hair is when I have to go to the doctor. I'm dreading tommorrow because I have to actually get dressed an leave my home. I was reading blue eyes blogg and I can understand everything he is talking about. When does it end, when does the sadness stop, when are U going to be happy again. What is going on, I cant even tell anymore. I'm trying to go back to work feeling like this, I know I have to push myself so the Pdr will let me go back, but I see myself loosing it in there. I really think I need to go to an institution for awhile, last time it scared me so bad because some of those people really were out of it.
 
My head is spinning and every morning I wake up with a bad headache,my mood swings are driving me crazy just 2hours ago I was just fine, I'm pacing the floor the only time my mind gets rest is when I sleep that's after I take all my medicine. Our family needs my part of the income and that is 1 reason why I'm a wreck. Is there only 1 way out like blue eyes said? When I read his I wanted to comment but I couldn't, but I think that's not the answer we have to somehow push ourselves out of this slump where in. Im tired tired tired of everything, it does make U think It's got to be better than this on the other side. Typing fast sorry if thinks dont make since.
 
     psuedoseizures,depression,anxiety      shakehead

damagedgoods41
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Date Joined Sep 2009
Total Posts : 377
   Posted 10/28/2009 8:04 PM (GMT -7)   
cool  hello realife i'm very sorry your not doing so well. I truly feel for you!! I to am not having a good time at the moment, but if you would like to have a chat about anything just go to my profile and send me an email if you would like to!!!!! My heart goes out to you. Be safe.
 
best wishes to you,
 
beverley.c. cool
diagnosed with C in 2001.
colorectal anastamosis 2001.
surgery went horribly wrong,swab left inside,emergency surgery 2001.
total colectomy & ileostomy 2001.
surgical complication's-abcess,more surgery 2001.
more complication's-stitches come apart inside and ended up having more surgery and blood transfusion. 2001.
infection at lap site,another abcess. 2001.
i spent 12mths in Cabrini Private Hospital in Melbourne.
1993 diagnosed with endometriosis,then age 27yrs had radical hysterectomy then 2 mths later lost both ovaries.
2005. bi-lateral mastectomy,heart attack on the table,also contracted MRSA in coronary care unit,had staph for about 12mths. pic line for 6 mths for venus access,for daily antibiotics.
march 2009. op on a parastomal hernia & re-fashioning of stoma. Then complications,huge abcess in small bowel & peritinitus,emergency laparotomy to remove,icu for 5 day's. I think that's enough, no more.
Am taking AVANZA for my depression & ocd!!!!!!!!!!!


getting by
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Date Joined Sep 2007
Total Posts : 40593
   Posted 10/28/2009 8:31 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi Reallife,

I am sorry that you are feeling so down right now. Maybe you aren't on the right medications. You should talk to your doctor about the way that you are feeling. It sounds like you might need some type of adjustment. I know, it is no fun changing medications, but maybe yours isn't right for you. You don't want to go to work without the right meds in your system. So talk to the doctor before you try working.

I hope that you feel better soon.

Hugs, Karen
  Moderator-Depression and fibromyalgia
 
fibromyalgia, Chronic fatigue, depression,allergies


Blue Eyes
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Date Joined Sep 2006
Total Posts : 27
   Posted 10/28/2009 9:03 PM (GMT -7)   
Sorry realife. I didn't mean to depress anyone else. You know how it is misery loves company. Which doesn't make sense, but then I usually don't. Good luck with your visit to the Pdr. Sorry again.

realife
Regular Member


Date Joined Oct 2009
Total Posts : 77
   Posted 10/29/2009 6:43 PM (GMT -7)   
Blue Eyes,

You didn't depress me anymore than I was! I just really could relate to what U were talking about, no sorry is needed. Thank U all I went to my appt today and my homework was to go to my job and walk in the front door without my husband and talk with the nurses. That was big for me because I don't leave the house but to go to my appt. and for me to walk in there see the people that I have worked with and had to hold a conversation with them because they havent seen me in so long that was SCARY im talking about sweating so bad my sweater was soaked, my hands were so wet, and I atleast had to go to the bathroom 5 times, I was so nervous BUT I DID IT I'M SO PROUD OF MYSELF. Next week there going to take me for a walk around the whole plant so everyone can see me and wont wanna ask me a million questions. As for medicine I have tried it all either the side effects were terrible and I had to stop it or it just didnt work for me. Any sugestions

Blue Eyes
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Date Joined Sep 2006
Total Posts : 27
   Posted 10/29/2009 6:54 PM (GMT -7)   
My only suggestions are deep breathing and exercise. When I could exercise it did make me feel better. It sounds like you have some understanding co-workers. That's good. You took a big step and lived through it. You should be proud of yourself.

getting by
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Date Joined Sep 2007
Total Posts : 40593
   Posted 10/29/2009 9:07 PM (GMT -7)   
I am for the deep breathing too. It sounds like you have high anxiety when around other people. But the breathing slows down everything so that you can regroup. Try to breathe in through the nose and out through the mouth. It is refered to as smelling the roses and blowing out the candles. It really brings the anxiety down.

Also walking is good. If you could get out and walk a little everyday. That would be good. Gradually increase how much you walk. Brisk walking is the best. It really centers you and makes your mind clear.

Also I meditate. It helps me to go to sleep at night. Also can bring the anxiety down.

I am able to take medications, I am sorry that you have had so many side effects and had them just plain not work. There is always new ones coming out. You might want to talk to your doctor about that. Do you go to counseling? It really helps me a lot. I highly recommend it.

I am working a job right now. I hadn't worked in seven years. I was so afraid that I couldn't do it. But I am. It is still one day at a time. But I am succeeding. Each and every day. I hope that you are able to do this as it makes you feel really good about yourself.

Best wishes and keep us up on how things are going.

Hugs, Karen
  Moderator-Depression and fibromyalgia
 
fibromyalgia, Chronic fatigue, depression,allergies


realife
Regular Member


Date Joined Oct 2009
Total Posts : 77
   Posted 10/30/2009 8:30 AM (GMT -7)   
THANK YOU ALL,

I am so so happy I found this link I don't know how I stumbled across it but it really helps to talk to people who understand what U are going through. Breathing that's what I had to do yesterday to get through my visit at my job. Getting by I thought working was out of the question untill yesterday, I might have a chance at going back and that will get me out of the house and feel like I'm doing something.

getting by
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Date Joined Sep 2007
Total Posts : 40593
   Posted 10/30/2009 9:22 AM (GMT -7)   
Working is a huge accomplishment. It really makes you feel good to know that you are contributing to the household. But if it doesn't work out, don't take it out on yourself. It is what it is. But I have a feeling that you will do well and you will feel so good about yourself. Please let us know how it goes. For me it is a way to take my mind off of my problems. I guess because I am so busy at the time.

Best wishes on your new job. And again, let us know how it goes. Keep posting, as I feel this is helping you.

Hugs, Karen
  Moderator-Depression and fibromyalgia
 
fibromyalgia, Chronic fatigue, depression,allergies


damagedgoods41
Regular Member


Date Joined Sep 2009
Total Posts : 377
   Posted 10/31/2009 1:44 AM (GMT -7)   
cool  hello Getting By,
 
I would just like to say congrat's for your new job!! I truly hope ur happy with it!! Pls let me know how ur doing ok. It's great to read some happy posts. Good luck in al you do. Have a good day/night.
 
best wishes to you,
 
beverley.c. smilewinkgrin
diagnosed with C in 2001.
colorectal anastamosis 2001.
surgery went horribly wrong,swab left inside,emergency surgery 2001.
total colectomy & ileostomy 2001.
surgical complication's-abcess,more surgery 2001.
more complication's-stitches come apart inside and ended up having more surgery and blood transfusion. 2001.
infection at lap site,another abcess. 2001.
i spent 12mths in Cabrini Private Hospital in Melbourne.
1993 diagnosed with endometriosis,then age 27yrs had radical hysterectomy then 2 mths later lost both ovaries.
2005. bi-lateral mastectomy,heart attack on the table,also contracted MRSA in coronary care unit,had staph for about 12mths. pic line for 6 mths for venus access,for daily antibiotics.
march 2009. op on a parastomal hernia & re-fashioning of stoma. Then complications,huge abcess in small bowel & peritinitus,emergency laparotomy to remove,icu for 5 day's. I think that's enough, no more.
Am taking AVANZA for my depression & ocd!!!!!!!!!!!

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