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inkobsessed
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   Posted 11/5/2009 11:26 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi Everyone,

This is my first time visiting this website. I have visited Depression chats before but haven't done so in a while. I have Major Depression with Anxiety and who knows what else. This has been one of the worst weeks of my life. I have been attending a University for 3 years now and I can't seem to pass the qualifying exam that allows me to do the internship. Last I heard the department was going to talk about where to go from here. They said there is a chance I will be done there. This is killing me. I feel like such a failure. I have come so far and now nothing? How can a test show that much about me? Anyways, besides that my younger brother was put in jail yesterday. He broke probation and now may be in jail for a year. I don't know how I will handle it. I am one of the only people that visits him. I do every week but I always leave crying. It is so hard to see your younger brother in orange. On top of that I found out my littlest brother who is in the Army is headed to war again in December when we thought he was headed to more training. I was glad that I would have a few months not to worry but guess that plan got thrown out the window. I am so proud of him but he is one of the only people who really understands my feelings regarding family and not being able to talk for so long sucks! So, as you can see I am pretty depressed this week! I have called in to work sick twice this week. I am hoping the time to myself will help. Crying in between teaching students just isn't good. Well, I just wanted to get this out. Thanks for reading.

mamalicious
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   Posted 11/5/2009 11:43 PM (GMT -7)   
That's a lot to deal with. It's no wonder you're thrown.

Crying at work is the worst. I have not cried in years and I find myself crying this week for NO legitimate reason other than being SAD.

See your doctor and your therapist soon. You are worth it.
 
 
 
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inkobsessed
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   Posted 11/5/2009 11:44 PM (GMT -7)   
yeah, I have an appointment with the therapist next Thursday.

getting by
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   Posted 11/5/2009 11:52 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi Inkobsessed,

Welcome to the depression forum. KNow that we are here to support you. I am sorry things are going badly right now. But you have to think about you. Get some therapy, keep posting, as we are all here for you.

Hugs, Karen
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fibromyalgia, Chronic fatigue, depression,allergies


inkobsessed
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   Posted 11/6/2009 4:33 AM (GMT -7)   
Thanks

serafena
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   Posted 11/6/2009 8:54 AM (GMT -7)   
Hi Inkobsessed,

Do you have test anxiety? Is it affecting you when you take this test? Talk to the disabilities coordinator at your school about alternative arrangements for taking this test. You may need a doctor's note about it. Test anxiety is real and debilitating, but there's no reason you should be thrown out of school for it if you're otherwise performing well. I was first diagnosed with anxiety in grad school, and my teachers were all SO good about helping me accomodate it. I hope yours will be too.

serafena
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"Bipolar disorder can be a great teacher. It's a challenge, but it can set you up to be able to do almost anything else in your life." - CARRIE FISHER


inkobsessed
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   Posted 11/6/2009 9:23 AM (GMT -7)   
I am thinking I really should talk to someone about that. I know for sure in this instance I was very anxious.

anonymous11
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   Posted 11/6/2009 7:07 PM (GMT -7)   
you poor thing omg! i can barely handle my life. you are very strong to be keeping it together this long, and if you keep trying you will do just fine.
good luck!

theraisinpixie
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   Posted 11/8/2009 1:40 PM (GMT -7)   
Wow, that sounds tough. When I'm down I'm get SERIOUSLY down but if I had to deal with what you're going through I don't know what I'd do.

You must keep strong, focused, dedicated to your family. I know you will and they need to know you will too. Try to keep your mind in control sweetheart, it'll all be okay. Just give your mind time. It'll all fit back together again soon xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

theraisinpixie
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   Posted 11/8/2009 1:41 PM (GMT -7)   
[This is also my first time visiting the site :)]

inkobsessed
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   Posted 11/8/2009 3:34 PM (GMT -7)   
I sure hope it all comes together soon. This is so hard. Tomorrow I am going to go see my brother; that is if he remembered to put me on the visitors list which hopefully they will tell me on the phone. I drive an hour to see him for 15 minutes! It's not fun but I know he needs to see me because I put on fake happy face and have good conversation with him. Well, hope the college gets back to me soon. thanks everyone.

getting by
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   Posted 11/8/2009 10:36 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi Theraisinpixie,

Welcome to HealingWell and the depression forum. I am so happy that you have joined us.

If you would like to, feel free to start your own introductory thread. Tell us a little about yourself so we can get to know you. That is if you feel comfortable with that.

I hope that you are having a good night/day. Take care.

Hugs, Karen
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fibromyalgia, Chronic fatigue, depression,allergies


damagedgoods41
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   Posted 11/8/2009 10:37 PM (GMT -7)   
cool  Hello Inkobsessed,
 
I would like to say hello and am truly sorry for your terrible situation.
You sound like a very intelligent,sensitive and very caring guy and dont ever change that. Im sorry about your brother and hope he is not doing thing's to hard. Also you are very supportive of him as not many people would drive 1 hour to see a person for 15minutes and that show's that your a good person. I also read that you have to put on that happy face,i to have to do this but am at the point where if im not feeling happy im not going to put it on anymore just for the sake of others and i dont think you should have to do this to. Except maybe when you see ur brother as it may upset him and that's hat you dont want i gather.
Also please go and talk to a thearapist to get it all out and maybe some medication would help to?? Please look after YOU!!!! if you dont who will hey. lol. Be good.
 
best wishes,
 
beverley. smurf blush smurf blush
diagnosed with C in 2001.
colorectal anastamosis 2001.
surgery went horribly wrong,swab left inside,emergency surgery 2001.
total colectomy & ileostomy 2001.
surgical complication's-abcess,more surgery 2001.
more complication's-stitches come apart inside and ended up having more surgery and blood transfusion. 2001.
infection at lap site,another abcess. 2001.
i spent 12mths in Cabrini Private Hospital in Melbourne.
1993 diagnosed with endometriosis,then age 27yrs had radical hysterectomy then 2 mths later lost both ovaries.
2005. bi-lateral mastectomy,heart attack on the table,also contracted MRSA in coronary care unit,had staph for about 12mths. pic line for 6 mths for venus access,for daily antibiotics.
march 2009. op on a parastomal hernia & re-fashioning of stoma. Then complications,huge abcess in small bowel & peritinitus,emergency laparotomy to remove,icu for 5 day's. I think that's enough, no more.
Am taking AVANZA for my depression & ocd!!!!!!!!!!!


damagedgoods41
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Date Joined Sep 2009
Total Posts : 377
   Posted 11/8/2009 11:07 PM (GMT -7)   
HI IM SORRY BUT I PUT THE WRONG NAME DOWN IN UR REPLY POST.
vERY sorry for that,not having a great day!!!!

take care,

beverley.
diagnosed with C in 2001.
colorectal anastamosis 2001.
surgery went horribly wrong,swab left inside,emergency surgery 2001.
total colectomy & ileostomy 2001.
surgical complication's-abcess,more surgery 2001.
more complication's-stitches come apart inside and ended up having more surgery and blood transfusion. 2001.
infection at lap site,another abcess. 2001.
i spent 12mths in Cabrini Private Hospital in Melbourne.
1993 diagnosed with endometriosis,then age 27yrs had radical hysterectomy then 2 mths later lost both ovaries.
2005. bi-lateral mastectomy,heart attack on the table,also contracted MRSA in coronary care unit,had staph for about 12mths. pic line for 6 mths for venus access,for daily antibiotics.
march 2009. op on a parastomal hernia & re-fashioning of stoma. Then complications,huge abcess in small bowel & peritinitus,emergency laparotomy to remove,icu for 5 day's. I think that's enough, no more.
Am taking AVANZA for my depression & ocd!!!!!!!!!!!


inkobsessed
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Date Joined Nov 2009
Total Posts : 7
   Posted 11/8/2009 11:59 PM (GMT -7)   
Thanks Beverly,

Just so you know I am a woman :) I had a really hard night tonight. I over drank and I think made a fool of myself to my family and friends by calling them in despair. I am on medication but it must not be working anymore. I dont know. I hate to switch and have that be worse. I know inside that alcohol isnt the answer but I like the feeling of relief a couple drinks gives me at least when I can keep it there. I havent made it an everyday thing. IT is hard to tell myself I dont have a problem with it though. Ah, I just feel like a fool.

damagedgoods41
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Date Joined Sep 2009
Total Posts : 377
   Posted 11/9/2009 1:50 AM (GMT -7)   
[img]/community/emoticons/cool.gif[/img] [img]/community/emoticons/scool.gif[/img] llo Inkobsessed,


Thankyou for the reply. I hope i didn't offend you regarding being male/female? It's hard sometimes when ur not thinking straight and make silly mistakes. Anyway that said and done how are you?? You mentioned in ur post that you are drinking a fair bit. I can understand what ur trying to say darling,your using the alcohol to numb urself and i dont blame you. I dont drink and never have but there are day's when it enters my mind that i should go and buy some grog and get drunk and totally forget about my life's stresse's. So alot of us use something as a crutch for our problem's. Srry moderators i just realized i should not have mentioned some of the above. Also what med's are you on and do you think they are working for you at all. And never feel embarrassed or anything else when asking for help. YOU ARE NOT A FOOL EITHER!!!!!

Hope this help's some.



Look after you,



beverley. [img]/community/emoticons/cool.gif[/img]

Beverley -- just as you predicted, I had to edit your post. Sorry. I hope you understand -- serafena

Post Edited By Moderator (serafena) : 11/9/2009 10:08:17 AM (GMT-7)


getting by
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Date Joined Sep 2007
Total Posts : 40601
   Posted 11/9/2009 11:03 AM (GMT -7)   
Inkobsessed,

Just remember that alcolhol is a depressant. That could be what is making you more depressed. Even if you don't get drunk, it still works against your anti depressants.

Don't feel like a fool. WE all make mistakes. Just learn from them. I hope that you feel better soon.

Hugs, Karen
  Moderator-Depression and fibromyalgia
 
fibromyalgia, Chronic fatigue, depression,allergies


damagedgoods41
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Date Joined Sep 2009
Total Posts : 377
   Posted 11/9/2009 3:52 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi Inkobsessed how are you 2day?? I agree with Karen in regard's to the alcohol being a depressant as my brother has been an alcoholic for 16yrs and when he drinks he gets depressed and violent and i think that's why ive never taken to the drink. But if this makes you happy then nobody can stop you. It's much the same with me with the other stuff,that could be making me worse to but just dont realize it yet!!!
Look after yourself and de reflect on what Karen has said to you..

take care,

beverley.
diagnosed with C in 2001.
colorectal anastamosis 2001.
surgery went horribly wrong,swab left inside,emergency surgery 2001.
total colectomy & ileostomy 2001.
surgical complication's-abcess,more surgery 2001.
more complication's-stitches come apart inside and ended up having more surgery and blood transfusion. 2001.
infection at lap site,another abcess. 2001.
i spent 12mths in Cabrini Private Hospital in Melbourne.
1993 diagnosed with endometriosis,then age 27yrs had radical hysterectomy then 2 mths later lost both ovaries.
2005. bi-lateral mastectomy,heart attack on the table,also contracted MRSA in coronary care unit,had staph for about 12mths. pic line for 6 mths for venus access,for daily antibiotics.
march 2009. op on a parastomal hernia & re-fashioning of stoma. Then complications,huge abcess in small bowel & peritinitus,emergency laparotomy to remove,icu for 5 day's. I think that's enough, no more.
Am taking AVANZA for my depression & ocd!!!!!!!!!!!

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