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mamalicious
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   Posted 11/8/2009 9:51 AM (GMT -7)   
I've been in depression mode for at least 2 weeks, maybe 3. 
 
I can't even make it off of the couch to take my medication or get something to eat.  I slept from 11p-9a, and I just want to go back to bed. 
 
My family is going to get tired of me wallering around.  I can't do any of the things that normally make me feel really good.  I don't even want to shower/brush teeth. 
 
This is terrible.  I can't hide from my kids.  They're going to know something is wrong with me (they are 7 and 3).
 
 
 
 
 
Holly- GAD, Migraines, TMJ disorder, Thyroid Disease
75 mg Effexor XR, 1mg Xanax PRN, Maxalt, Phenegran, Levothyroxine
 
 


worriedgirl
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   Posted 11/8/2009 11:28 AM (GMT -7)   
i see you have a thyroid disease, could it be your thyroid making you feel so depressed? i would contact your doctor and get it situated out. i know my friend has a thyroid disorder and when her meds get out of wack she just wants to sleep and not do anything
The only person who can make you happy is you. Be your own self and love who you are because each and every one of you are wonderful for who you are


serafena
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   Posted 11/8/2009 2:25 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi mamalicious,

I have totally been there. You must make yourself go through the motions, at least, no matter how hard it is. Brush those teeth, or you'll feel even worse. And you'll feel guilty for feeling worse. You really need to eat and take your meds too, so at minimum, try and do those things. It sounds like you could use a med adjustment if you're on meds and feeling this bad. Have you called your doc yet?

serafena
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mamalicious
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   Posted 11/8/2009 8:31 PM (GMT -7)   
Yes, Serafena. I saw my therapist last week, and tanked again so I called my p-doc. My meds are not working. I haven't felt this bad since having PPD in 2006.

I'm horribly worthless and helpless right now. I'm disconnected from my emotions, my children, the things that normally make me feel proud of the wonderful life I have. I am an "in charge" person who has the bull by the horns. Things are like clockwork at my house. I can't even do laundry because I can't finish it when I start.

I don't want to work, I don't want to be at home, I don't want to get dressed or leave the house. I just want to sit here until Friday. I want to shake myself and snap out of it.

It doesn't so much work like that.
 
 
 
Holly- GAD, Migraines, TMJ disorder, Thyroid Disease
75 mg Effexor XR, 1mg Xanax PRN, Maxalt, Phenegran, Levothyroxine
 
 


getting by
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   Posted 11/8/2009 11:24 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi there,

First of all, you are not worthless. You are far far from that. You are a wonderful person and it just so happens that you don't feel good.

When I first got fibromyalgia, I was the same way. I ended up spending two years in bed. It was horrible. I was so sick and so weak and in so much pain. But it got to the point that I just couldn't do anything. But the main thing that I knew. Was that I couldn't beat myself up over it. Or the guilt got worse. Then I was more sick.

So if you absolutely can't do those things that you would like to. Just don't punish yourself for not being able to. And when you go to your appointment on Friday, let them know what you are going through.

But as Serafena said, you will feel better if you brush your teeth. lol...

But yeah, I know how you feel. It took me a long time of doctors, and finally finding the right meds for me, and now I am working a part time job. I went seven years without working. But I now feel good about myself. And you will too.

Keep posting and let us know how you are doing.

Hugs, Karen
  Moderator-Depression and fibromyalgia
 
fibromyalgia, Chronic fatigue, depression,allergies


THE HAPPY TURTLE
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   Posted 11/9/2009 3:43 AM (GMT -7)   
keep fightin it. if ya can do one thing, your mind will become focused to do others. i am fatigued at the moment, albeit i get what i need to do done, maybe this approach can aid you. my compassion to you. jamie.
YESTERDAY IS A BUTTERLY WITHOUT WINGS. (ME)
 
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REMEMBER TO LOVE YOU. BE YOU AND BE TRUE.


mamalicious
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   Posted 11/9/2009 3:07 PM (GMT -7)   
Thank you very much for your words. I was able to motivate myself to eat, cook lunch and dinner for family, and brush my teeth and take a shower.

I also made it to work today and was productive. I don't feel great, but I am glad that I have people counting on me because that forces me out of the bed. Being in bed does NOT help me.

I'm going to tell my doctor on Friday, I know a medication switch is in order. I just had my thyroid checked and everything was fine with my blood work.

I'm going to try not to feel bad about feeling bad. I'm going to try to focus on Friday being the day that the doctor and I get to try something new that will take me back to the happy mommy wife employee that normally is me.
 
 
 
Holly- GAD, Migraines, TMJ disorder, Thyroid Disease
75 mg Effexor XR, 1mg Xanax PRN, Maxalt, Phenegran, Levothyroxine
 
 


getting by
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   Posted 11/9/2009 4:54 PM (GMT -7)   
I am happy that you are going to see your doctor on Friday. And Friday will be here in no time. Give yourself permission to feel the way that you feel in the meantime. No beating yourself up.

Best wishes to you,

Hugs, Karen
  Moderator-Depression and fibromyalgia
 
fibromyalgia, Chronic fatigue, depression,allergies


mamalicious
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   Posted 11/9/2009 7:38 PM (GMT -7)   
I've had a decent evening. I managed to start the dishwasher and do 4 loads of laundry. Dinner wasn't great, but it tastes good (we ate rotel cheese dip). It was all I could do to get that done!

I am very sleepy and ready for my bed. The girls were good, sweet, and fun.

Still not feeling top-notch but I have figured out that being in the bed does not help me at all.
 
 
 
Holly- GAD, Migraines, TMJ disorder, Thyroid Disease
20mg Lexapro, 1mg Xanax PRN, Maxalt, Phenegran, Levothyroxine
 
 


THE HAPPY TURTLE
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   Posted 11/10/2009 1:00 AM (GMT -7)   
good on you. proud of ya. jamie. keep fightin'. smilewinkgrin
YESTERDAY IS A BUTTERLY WITHOUT WINGS. (ME)
 
DX, MDD, SEVERE BORDERLINE PERSONALITY DISORDER.
 
REMEMBER TO LOVE YOU. BE YOU AND BE TRUE.

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