New at this I don’t know what else to do, I have been so depress for so long that I can’t even fake it anymore. I was on meds that didn’t work or made me sicker. So I had to stop, I just want to die and end every thing. My life ended when I was born, my brothers abused me, when they stopped then revolution start and war start. I came here for better life and it start all over, people hate me, and teacher failed me just because where I was from. But I had to show them all that I was strong, and continued finished master degree got married to an abusive husband (European man). When I finally got strong enough and kidded him out and met my true love, I thought to myself that it is over. I have my kids, a man that loves me and I love him, a job that I love, it sounded just like a fairy tale. But I was just fooling myself, Once again, I was attacked by my boss because where I was born, it went on until I had a mental break down. Now, I am diagnosed with PTSD and sever depression and anxiety attack which was not new. I just used work to keep the PTSD under control. I have a therapist that I like but, I just want to quit life, but don’t know how. I am not strong enough to take my life. Just to top it all, my memory is not what it should be. I just don’t know what to do. How can I forget a life time full of trauma?