First, a little background info since most of you don't know me. I'm a single, 22 year old female from the US. I have been diagnosed with depression a second time and am currently taking Prozac (SRI), as you might guess. The first time I took another drug that happened to be an MAOI- so I'm trying to use that as my bright side.
In my desire to one day have a significant other, I decided to spend more and more of my time learning from whatever resource I could obtain. I came to the conclusion that it would be a good idea to hash out any problems I had when I was little, anything that could have an effect on my family. Piece by piece I started remembering what I call repressed memories (I don't know how else to describe them. I did end up getting quite overwhelmed. I have found it all so overwhelming that I'm deciding to take it one baby step at a time toward some sort of closure.
I imagine it best to try to start with the one that I feel easiest to describe, and move on from there.
When I was little, something happened and my mom "disciplined" me. I was about 8 at the time. I asked her a question I regret asking, "Don't you love me?". Her response to that question is one I'm having a hard time with, because to date I still see significant evidence that supports her answer. She said she would start loving me when I stopped making mistakes, that she never loved me to begin with.
I know I can't change what happened and what was said, but I don't know what to do with this memory either. I can know to never repeat those words to my kids if I ever have any, but I'm at a loss for closure, peace.... just wondering if anyone out there's been there or can share anything that might help.
Young Onset Parkinson's