I would like to say hello and i truly hope that you get the help you deserve. It sound's to me like ur depressed,as you say in ur post ur sad everyday and you dont know why??? Do you have a good doc or councellor or other??? It sound's like you need to talk to someone about the real issues behind ur depression.
Please look after urself. Hope this help's some..
dx bowel cr 2001. permanent ileostomy.
sub-total colectomy 2001,went wrong.
total colectomy 2001,left swab inside,infected,emergency surgery,blood transfusion.
complication 2001,bowel abcess,surgery.
Infection at lap site,another surgery.
Complication's 2001,bowel heamorage,blood transfusion.
Spent 12mths at Cabrini Hospital.
dx 1993 endometriosis chronic.
27 yrs, hysterectomy.
2mths later, bi-lat ophrectomy,removal of both ovaries.
dx 2005,bi-lateral mastectomy,heart attack on operating table,contracted MRSA in Coronary Care Unit.
Picc Line for 6mths for venus access & daily antibiotics.
dx 2009, parastomal hernia,march 09 hernia repair & re-fashioning of stoma.
dx 2009, complications abcess & peritontise,
emergency surgery,icu 5 day's.
dx 1995, chronic depression,o.c.d. & bi-polar11.
Currently taking Avanza,seroquel,valium,asprin & HRT. I get depressed reading this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!