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Mike619er
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   Posted 12/4/2009 7:58 PM (GMT -7)   
I've been posting a lot on the anxiety forums but I'm guessing I should also be posting here.  For the past 2 months I've been dealing with depression and anxiety, or as it has been diagnosed by my psychiatrist.  I've been on cymbalta for the last 3 weeks now, I've noticed a lot of my wild negative thoughts about myself have slowed down and am able to actually concentrate on things that I used to enjoy doing.  I still have this empty feeling though, and still really nervous.  Sleeping without taking my prescribed Ativan and Ambien pills is nearly impossible, I just stay up and stare at the TV.  Totally unmotivated in doing anything lately and I feel a little bit like a robot, it's hard to explain.  I know I'm in control but I just feel as if I'm not really there?  I don't know, I'm really not feeling like I normally do, that's the best way to put it.  Think this could just be depression like the psychiatrist is saying?  The cymbalta has helped some of the negative thoughts, but I'm worrying that the sensitivity to light and sound is still here, and the nervousness.  Not quite sure whats going on, getting worried.
 
~Mike

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   Posted 12/4/2009 9:09 PM (GMT -7)   

Mike, I'm not a doctor, nor have I ever been on Cymbalta.  However, I can tell you that I have taken many antidepressant/antianxiety medications in the past.  I always had the sensation that there was a plate glass window separating me from the world.  When you said you felt like you weren't there and were feeling somewhat robatic, that is what it reminded me of.  So what you are feeling could well be the side effects of Cymbalta.  Ask your psychiatrist about this.  OTOH, it could just be your depression, which can have a similar effect.  Sometimes it takes trying different meds to find a combination that works best for you.

Hang in there!

Connie


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Mike619er
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   Posted 12/5/2009 3:33 AM (GMT -7)   
Thanks Connie, I felt the I'm not really there just going through the motions a little bit before the cymbalta, but one thing I couldn't do before the cymbalta was sit down and actually watch a tv show and focus on it, which I can do now.  Still suffer from uncontrollable yawning, fidgeting, and often times I'm spacing out and just being quiet.  On the other hand other times I find myself rambling and talking fast, I believe that happens because I'm just upset with how down and withdrawn I'm feeling and I'm trying to force myself into snapping out of it.  Can also tack on some muscle tightness and pain in my jaw/neck area.

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   Posted 12/5/2009 8:38 AM (GMT -7)   
It almost sounds like you have a bit of mania. I would talk to the doctor about that.

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Mike619er
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   Posted 12/5/2009 10:48 AM (GMT -7)   
Mania can come from depression?  I thought mania only happened if you had bipolar of skizophrenia?

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   Posted 12/5/2009 3:00 PM (GMT -7)   
mike, i have had a bout/dx of aggitated mania. sounds like it. me changed to cymbalta. 60mg, works pretty well, me sleep deprived, and i have stated the reasons, thus i would look at other options for you. seroquel is an excellent agent for most with sleep. here you need a dx of schizophrenia/personality disorder to get it. (australia). have a chat with your doc /psychiatrist about dialectic behavioural therapy, this helped me emmensly, as well as mindfulness practice. being immersed in activity when these feelings take hold helps. hope this helps. jamie. with compassion.
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   Posted 12/5/2009 10:35 PM (GMT -7)   
Mike, it's not unusual for a person with one disorder to have others.  Sometimes they just take time to be diagnosed properly.  The fidgeting, etc., could also be a result of undiagnosed ADD or hyperactivity, or simply anxiety.  A good clinician should be able to sort things out.  I hope this happens for you soon so that the proper treatment can be initiated.
 
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Connie
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Mike619er
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   Posted 12/6/2009 12:19 AM (GMT -7)   
Yea I hope I can get to the bottom of this soon, it's so darn hard to concentrate on things anymore.  Went to visit a friend tonight to try and have a good time and got completely lost and sidetracked the whole way home, not to mention spacing out and still completely wired.  Pretty funny too that the normal sports radio station I listen to turned into a self-help station that had some woman talking about her battles with her alcoholism in her mid 20s.  I'm in my mid 20s and was drinking pretty heavily before this onset of anxiety hit.  Always had the depression a little bit, but lately its been a bit ridiculous.  I've gone completely numb, except my headache lol
 
Funny thing is my first primary doctor I saw prescribed me seroquel, my first psychologist said it wasnt good and not to take it and my psychiatrist prescribed cymbalta which helps me focus a lil better, but im on 120 mg and still having depression/anxiety problems pretty badly and not thinking clearly.  Might have to bring up trying Zoloft since my grandfather and aunt take it and seem to respond well to it.
 
~Mike
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