Hello im new here, cant belive christmas is upon us again, the year seems to have passed so fast, where did it go?
I am Jane, i have 2 children a girl aged 7 called Sophie and a boy aged 12 called Jordon. I have split from my violent husband as just after last christmas he left us after i discovered he had been seeing someone from work behind our back, since he left he hasnt been back in contact and hasnt seen the children.
I cant belive i didnt realise he was cheeting on us, although i had thought about leaving him in the past because of the abuse i never actually thought i would get away so him leaving was a big shock.
It has been hard looking after the children on my own after 12 years of having someone around.
I have recentley been to see my doctor who has said that i am suffering from depresion and anxiety.
I have a part time job which i love, it doesnt pay much but enough to pay the bills and keep the kids fed and warm which is all that matters really. Its just that im worried about christmas, what with it being just around the corner, i have no savings for presents anymore because all the money i did have saved has been now spent on new uniforms for the kids for school and things which my ex would usually of paid for. On other years i would have save a bit of money to buy presents, but this year i dont know what i am going to do. Sometimes i feal angry at the ex for leaving us, sometimes i feal sad because im alone, sometimes i feal worthless, sometimes i feal guilty because i cant get he kids things they want, and alot of the time i feal tired and like i cant go on.
I just want one day of fealling happy, loved, strong and with no worries just for that one day.
thanks for reading this,