it hasn't even been a week since my overly happy life was destroyed
seeing it colapse into nothing has made me realize I haven't been happy with my life for such a long time.
today i thought about
not coming home. to try and clear my mind i just kept driving through the country, crying
i kept thinking, if i just i could be put in the hospital and not have to deal with everyone
i don't necessarily want to kill myself, but i also don't trust myself either
i just keep thinking it would be better if i didn't have to do anything but be on for the next month or two
i don't feel like i can pray anymore. i'm trying though.
i feel like i don't get the right answers or like maybe i'm not wanting to get the answer i know i should.
i feel so alone and helpless...
Post Edited By Moderator (getting by) : 12/7/2009 8:12:03 PM (GMT-7)