I feel like i was a child yesterday, running and playing with literally doesens of friends just on my block. Now im grown with loads of responsibilities and im not ready for this, im immature. i lost the love of my life and i dont know what i did wrong, i miss her and i feel like garbage without her. i guess i have felt my pool of friends draining and life rushing around the time she left. i had a dream a few weeks ago about
me trying to save a gothic girl that was going crazy, in the dream she tried to murder me. since then i feel darkness filling my life, seeing most people makes me physically sick to my stomach. holidays have lost that special feeling. another fact is that my brother has been raised horribly, he does what he wants when he wants and gets all the money he wants. and yet he is depressed, he doesnt understand feelings. he treats the world like crap. Im not ready for any of this, please someone, whats my problem, how can i feel how i used to?