hi i am jamie, male, 37 and an aussie. i here you girl, at this point you are internalising, both external and internal implosions are not fruitful, but here you have put some of it out there, so well done for that. bottling it up is dangerous, implosions are not good. venting is. depression is an insidious beast, it does not discriminate. because of your insurance situation i would recommend calling a help-line in your area, moreover you may well be refered to a counsellor who will see you on a sliding fee scale. i would talk with your doc about any options for treatment-and or referal. i am glad that you were brave enough to post, keep being brave and remember that you are battling a medical condition, furthermore you are a human being and deserve empathy and compassion. my compassionate thoughts are with you. jamie.
ps other members in your zone will post with ideas. hold on. we care about you. if you feel like posting we will help you to help you. with kindness and compassion, jamie.
YESTERDAY IS A BUTTERLY WITHOUT WINGS. (ME)
DX, MDD, SEVERE BORDERLINE PERSONALITY DISORDER.
REMEMBER TO LOVE YOU. BE YOU AND BE TRUE.