Welcome to HealingWell and the depression board.
I am concerned about
you being "used" in this situation. I would bet money that this girl remembers everything she did that night, but isn't ready to admit her emotions or sexual preferences. Clearly she enjoys your company and advances, but isn't reciprocating the way a healthy romantic partner would. You need to be careful here. You are in line to get really hurt.
Seek out some organizations for queer teens, such as www.amplifyyourvoice.org/youthresource
. You could really use the support, and you want to be on guard with this girl. This isn't how healthy relationships progress. Both partners should be equally enthusiastic about
getting together, and sexuality is secondary to the emotional connection they feel.
SerafenaCo-Moderator, Bipolar and Depression ForumsBipolar II
"Bipolar disorder can be a great teacher. It's a challenge, but it can set you up to be able to do almost anything else in your life." - CARRIE FISHER