I need help and someone to talk too about possibly being depressed

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Destinychild
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   Posted 1/31/2010 10:53 PM (GMT -7)   
Hello, I have for  along time everysince I was little and after I was molested have slept for long periods of time during the day, and now since I am older It seems as though I am having and dealing with the same thing. Don't know if I have depression or not, but I have been told that I suffer from depression really bad. Awhile back, I have took things and tried to drink because of depression and wanted to , and I have also tried to take something and  because I was depressed at the time. I thought that I was over it, but it seems as though I am. I also have trouble sleeping at night and I feel as though I don't get enough sleep during the day to where I am sleeping until 12noon maybe longer during the day. My life is in so much of shambles right now and I don't know what else to do, and my marriage is on the rocks and sometimes I feel as though I cant do anything right that I am always messing up even when I try to do things right. Lately I have been experiencing the worst headaches lasting days at a time, and I have also been experiencing pain in my right arm that starts at my hand and goes all the way to my upper arm, and it feels as though I am getting my blood pressure ck with one of those cuffs on my arm and its squeezing the blood circulation, and then my hand swells to the point I can't remove my rings on my finger. This stays like this for a couple of hours an then it goes away and I feel much better at the end.
My husband and I aren't getting better because the name calling is involved and the pushing and argueing to the point that my kids put their mp3 players in their ear just so they can't hear us argue, and I can't remember the last time that we had laughter at all, and then the sex has completely gone away and sometimes we feel as though we are sick of being around each other at all. e tell each other that we love each thoughand we kiss each other, but then the next day something brings us to arguing again and most of the time it's me; because I am doing something wrong in his eyes. I have noone to talk to at all, no friends in my life and I feel as thoug its me myself and I, and If I show emotions then I am a cry baby, and if I tell him that I am hurting health wise he doesn't believe me and pass it off as being weak and complaining all of the time to where I don't tell him at all.
What should I do? If I go see someone for help the service cost so much and I can't afford it, but I need to do something. Sometimes I ask God to one day just take me away from this crue world because I am so tired of being here.

Post Edited By Moderator (getting by) : 2/1/2010 7:10:20 AM (GMT-7)


getting by
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   Posted 2/1/2010 7:13 AM (GMT -7)   
Hi Destinychild,
 
I had to edit your post because we are not suppose to talk about self harm or suicide.
 
I think it is important that both of you get into counseling.  If not for yourself, do it for the kids.  There are programs that will cut the costs so that you can afford to go.
 
I am sorry that the children are being effected by this.  That is not good.  This can leave emotional scars for them.  So please try not to argue in front of them.
 
Coming here is a good thing.  You can vent or just talk and there are many compassionate members here that do understand.
 
Please keep posting, as we are here for you.
 
Best wishes,
 
Hugs, Karen
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Destinychild
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   Posted 2/1/2010 11:46 AM (GMT -7)   
Karen, I didn't know the rules and I just though that this was a place for someone to come and talk to another. I also wanted to let you know that I was talking in th past tense and not in the future....I haven't thought that deep everysince well it's been a long long long time ago, but I was just wondering do I suffer from it because I sleep all of the time and when I get up I feel as if its very hard for me/. I didn't mean to come accross as if I were doing bodily harm to myself because seriously I am not, but I don't know if I suffer from having very low blood or either depression.
I get sad sometimes when my husband and I aren't having our best days, but at the end of the day I am okay. I don't know why I sleep so much and so long, but was just wondering.
destinychild

getting by
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   Posted 2/1/2010 2:00 PM (GMT -7)   
Have you talked to your health professional about this? You might have a physical ailment like chronic fatigue syndrome, or it could be from the depression. I have fibromyalgia which makes me want to sleep all of the time. I have to take medication for that.

I would talk with my doctor about this, get his/her opinion on what is going on with you.

Please keep posting, let us know how you are doing. Everybody here is very kind and compassionate.

Hugs, Karen
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fibromyalgia, Chronic fatigue, depression,allergies


Lucious
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   Posted 2/1/2010 4:02 PM (GMT -7)   
Destiny child, I feel your pain...i was struck with prostrate cancer 2008 and even tho my cancer is in check right now, my back is out and the radiation damaged my intestines. Speaking of depression; let me give u some suggestions of what worked for me 1. you mentioned god...great...get god more involved in your life, read your bible and prayer everyday. Once u realize god dont mean for bad things to happen to us but he allows satan to test us all the time...Read the book of Job...2..get a medical evaluation so u know where u stand physically and mentally..u may need medications..3 surround yourself with positive people all the time especially the ones that make u laugh...your friends, family, church group, support group and appears u need to find quiet time for yourself that gives u peace and tranquility. I like the beach ocean, music,...I hope this has been helpful...u will find me on the forum all the time..i like it being new i found this site great...and plan to participate..take care and god bless.....Lucious

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   Posted 2/2/2010 12:37 AM (GMT -7)   
agree that a thorough medical assessment is required. with healing compassion, jamie.
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Destinychild
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   Posted 2/2/2010 7:32 AM (GMT -7)   
Hello Everyone, Thank you for all of the kind words that have came my way. Today is one of my good days here on earth, and I pray for more of them to come. I was allow to see 2010 and my birthday, but sometimes my mind is anticapting what will be later on today, and if my household will be okay. I still continue to pray and ask god to see me through, but please keep the prayers through.

getting by
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   Posted 2/2/2010 7:38 AM (GMT -7)   
Try to stay focused in the moment. In the now as they say. That is the only way to live without anxiety and depression.

Oh Yes. Happy Birthday to you!!!

Hugs, Karen
  Moderator-Depression and fibromyalgia
 
fibromyalgia, Chronic fatigue, depression,allergies

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