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faithfully4you
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   Posted 2/2/2010 1:11 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi everyone~
Doing ok, no better no worse.  I havent made a doc appt for my health because of funds.  Finances have been so tight that I have had to do without certain items to pay for house, etc.  I cant imagine having enough money to at least go month to month.
I have gone through most of my sister's things and have them sitting in my room.  I actually slept in my extra room because I couldnt bear to look at them laying in piles on the floor.  I have since gotten them put into some order but I still need to sit and look.  I know that there is no rush.  There is just so many things I want to say because of how I feel but I although I smile knowing deep inside that my FAITH has never left.
 
I may spend Valentines Day in Florida with my best friend, Ethel.  She moved there a couple weeks ago and I really miss her so much.  I have not had a lot of friends (except you guys:)) but she has been a good friend for the last couple years and she lived only on the next street so I was used to seeing her every day.  We would talk and laugh about everything including the topics I hold sacred and would never share with anyone else.  I have trusted her and she has never let me down, I do love her and miss her.  I am actually lost without Ethel and her family.  She called me today crying and asked me if I could come down and be with her.  She suffers from depression and moved to a state where she knows nobody.  I told her that I would probably want to fly because of my narcolepsy, but I did promise her I would go as soon as I could.  However, I would never tell her but I really cant afford to go at all,but I will find a wayto not let her down.  She really is having a hard time because she has to look for a new job after all the years here at our college, Mount Union.  She needs me and it is nice to feel someone really needs you.
 
Valentine's day has always held a significant meaning so I really need this.
 
 
" God not only sends special angels into our lives, but sometimes He even sends them back again if we forget to take notes the first time!"
Quoted in The Angels' Little Instruction Book by Eileen Elias Freeman, 1994


" We are each of us angels with only one wing, and we can only fly by embracing one another."
Luciano de Crescenzo


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   Posted 2/2/2010 2:17 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi Teresa,

I am so happy that you are going to go and spend time with your best friend. That is awesome!!!

I am sorry that you are not able to see your doctor. Do you still have the vns? I can't remember if you had it removed or not. I know that you were thinking about it.

I hope that you have a wonderful time with Ethel. You deserve this. You will be in warm weather and hopefully have lots of fun. You might not want to come back! Keep in touch and let us know how you are doing. If we don't here from you before, happy Valentines!

Hugs, Karen
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THE HAPPY TURTLE
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   Posted 2/2/2010 8:51 PM (GMT -7)   
to help a friend in need is a friend indeed!! where there is a will there is a way. keep well. with compassion, jamie. i too am struggling financially.
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faithfully4you
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   Posted 2/3/2010 1:34 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi everyone~
Yes, I still have the VNS put it was turned off several months ago and I am waiting for insurance to pay to have it removed.  I am not sure if it helped or not because I am still so depressed.
 
Now I am not sure whether or not I will be able to go for several reasons but the thought of never having enough money for basic things is really depressing.  I just want my life to be so much better.
" God not only sends special angels into our lives, but sometimes He even sends them back again if we forget to take notes the first time!"
Quoted in The Angels' Little Instruction Book by Eileen Elias Freeman, 1994


" We are each of us angels with only one wing, and we can only fly by embracing one another."
Luciano de Crescenzo


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   Posted 2/3/2010 5:19 PM (GMT -7)   
remain positive, your life will get back on track. take care of you. with healing compassion, jamie
YESTERDAY IS A BUTTERLY WITHOUT WINGS. (ME)
 
DX, MDD, SEVERE BORDERLINE PERSONALITY DISORDER.
 
REMEMBER TO LOVE YOU. BE YOU AND BE TRUE.


faithfully4you
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   Posted 2/12/2010 12:41 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi everyone~
I have a few minutes on the library computer so I wanted to say hi and let you know that I went to see my doctor on Tuesday and he has ordered several blood tests for me. I was shoveling my driveway the other day and hit myself in the face accidently with the handle. My doctor says besides a black eye (which by the way looks horrible) it should heal ok.
Didnt get to go to Florida but I am hoping to go the second week in March, hoping that I will be able to both financially and mentally. My depression has gotten so bad that I am alone this Valentines Day but I dont really care. I dont celebrate Valentines Day anymore. I still have my heart light and the strands painted pink by my angel but they have stayed in a box for a couple years and that is where they will stay until I feel ok about this day again. I have learned to be hard and try not to let the fact that I chase everyone that cares about me away. I get angry because NOONE has cared enough to sit with me while I look through my sister's boxes. I have managed to look once and awhile and find a momentum that makes me cry. I do miss her so much!!!!!!!!!

I want everyone to have a good Valentines Day and may it be as special as mine used to be.
" God not only sends special angels into our lives, but sometimes He even sends them back again if we forget to take notes the first time!"
Quoted in The Angels' Little Instruction Book by Eileen Elias Freeman, 1994


" We are each of us angels with only one wing, and we can only fly by embracing one another."
Luciano de Crescenzo


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   Posted 2/12/2010 2:19 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi Teresa,

Know that we are here for you during this difficult time. And will always be.

I am sorry that you have a black eye. I imagine that it will heal soon. But I have had them before and I hate them. So I know how you feel.

Keep posting and let us know how you are doing. I am glad that your doctor is staying on top of things.

Best wishes to you hun.

Hugs, Karen
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   Posted 2/12/2010 4:16 PM (GMT -7)   
thinking of you during this difficult time, jamie.
YESTERDAY IS A BUTTERLY WITHOUT WINGS. (ME)
 
DX, MDD, SEVERE BORDERLINE PERSONALITY DISORDER.
 
REMEMBER TO LOVE YOU. BE YOU AND BE TRUE.


faithfully4you
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   Posted 2/13/2010 12:18 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi everyone~
Feeling under the weather today, I guess it is because of Valentine's Day. I will be ok.
Just wanted to say thanks for all the support!
" God not only sends special angels into our lives, but sometimes He even sends them back again if we forget to take notes the first time!"
Quoted in The Angels' Little Instruction Book by Eileen Elias Freeman, 1994


" We are each of us angels with only one wing, and we can only fly by embracing one another."
Luciano de Crescenzo


THE HAPPY TURTLE
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   Posted 2/13/2010 10:55 PM (GMT -7)   
keep well and know that we care, jamie.
YESTERDAY IS A BUTTERLY WITHOUT WINGS. (ME)
 
DX, MDD, SEVERE BORDERLINE PERSONALITY DISORDER.
 
REMEMBER TO LOVE YOU. BE YOU AND BE TRUE.


faithfully4you
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   Posted 2/23/2010 1:17 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi everyone,
Just wanted to let you guys know that I got my test results back from my doctor and they were not good and more testing is needed. Apparently my bruising and pain might be related. Serious anemic results came back but everything else seems within normal limits so they are not sure why my hematology tests are not good. I am going to research things as I always do and find out on my own what is in store for me. A little scared to go through this alone because I will not let anyone know until they are sure of a diagnosis.

Feeling really tired and depressed as usual.
" God not only sends special angels into our lives, but sometimes He even sends them back again if we forget to take notes the first time!"
Quoted in The Angels' Little Instruction Book by Eileen Elias Freeman, 1994


" We are each of us angels with only one wing, and we can only fly by embracing one another."
Luciano de Crescenzo


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   Posted 2/23/2010 2:25 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi Teresa,

I am sorry that your blood tests didn't come out good, I hope that it is nothing serious. Please keep us updated as you find out what is going on. We are all very concerned about you.

I hope that your mood improves and that you feel better soon. I am sorry that you are depressed.

Take care, let us know how you are doing.

Hugs, Karen
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   Posted 2/24/2010 9:19 AM (GMT -7)   
healing prayers to you teresa. with compassion, jamie.
 
(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
YESTERDAY IS A BUTTERLY WITHOUT WINGS. (ME)
 
DX, MDD, SEVERE BORDERLINE PERSONALITY DISORDER.
 
REMEMBER TO LOVE YOU. BE YOU AND BE TRUE.


faithfully4you
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   Posted 3/1/2010 12:42 PM (GMT -7)   
hi everyone,
had a quick minute to catch up on things. I did go to my family doctor and he has referred me to a hematologist for further testing. My blood cells are not increasing like they should and my bruising is a concern to them. I am waiting on the specialist to call me for an appointment. I am kinda scared about this referral but at least someone is listening to me. He also said that he is going to advocate for the VNS to be removed because the body sees it as a foreign body and can actually see it as a threat and if it is not removed, could be dangerous.
I will keep you abreast of what happens.
" God not only sends special angels into our lives, but sometimes He even sends them back again if we forget to take notes the first time!"
Quoted in The Angels' Little Instruction Book by Eileen Elias Freeman, 1994


" We are each of us angels with only one wing, and we can only fly by embracing one another."
Luciano de Crescenzo


getting by
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   Posted 3/1/2010 1:05 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi Teresa,

Thank you for the update. And I am so happy that you are getting the vns removed, do you think it could be a part of this problem that you are having with your blood? It would be nice to cure two things at the same time. I am sure that you are very frightened. This is scarey. But have faith that the doctor will find out what is going on. Please keep us updated, know that we are all concerned.

I hope that you see better days to come. Take care my friend.

Hugs, Karen
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fibromyalgia, Chronic fatigue, depression,allergies

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