Grief for a loved one is the rock upon which the strongest of people founder. It's no surprise to me that you can't be bothered doing things that might have a payoff sometime in the future, when you are struggling so hard to cope with just now. Mother Nature has designed you to feel as if now is what matters, and it will be taking up all your time and energy and attention !
Advice is often only worth as much as you pay for it, but I think you've done an unusually smart thing in coming to this forum. So often the impulse is to pretend the hurt is not there, or to not ask for help because you just want to be alone. (Or maybe I was just very dysfunctional at your age ! )
Here, you can speak to people who know the flavour of the problem you are trying to cope with - not just a theoretical knowledge from training - and the help is more likely to be about your feelings and less likely to be about a PCP's favourite medication.
Well, for what it's worth, my advice is the same as the others. Go see a bereavement counsellor if you have such a service locally, or failing that go see a doctor to see what help is available. This is not something that you are likely to be able to cope with yourself - you will probably need either chemical or behavioural (but certainly in some form, emotional) help to win through this uphill challenge.
Best of luck, smart guy !
Post Edited (joeboot) : 12/7/2004 3:58:30 PM (GMT-7)