I haven't posted in the depression forum lately, so I just thought I'd update you all on what's been going on.
I found out a few weeks ago that my ex boyfriend tried to commit suicide a few days before Christmas. He started dating someone after we broke up, and they broke up right before he did what he did. He was hospitalized for 3 days, and is now finally seeing a therapist and trying to deal with some issues that have haunted him during his life. It's been extremely stressful for me because I wish he would confront his demons instead of ignoring them and hoping they would go away on their own. I don't know how honest he is being with his therapist, or how much he will bring up the painful issues that bother him. He is a wonderful, smart and dear friend, and I was so hurt when I found out what happened. It hurts me so much to think he would go to the extent that he did. I cried when I found out about it.
He is now extremely sensitive, and gets overwhelmed easily, so right now I'm taking care of his dog because he can't deal with her right now. He's living in his apartment by himself, and IMs me telling me that he feels very alone and feels like he's an ugly person and doesn't deserve love. It's just hard to see a friend like that. He doesn't see himself like me and all of his friends do, and I wish he could see himself how others see him.
Please keep him in your thoughts. Hopefully he will continue therapy and start feeling better about himself.
31 yr old female-dx with Crohn's in '97 after emergency resection and appendectomy, 2nd resection '05, Bilateral pulmonary emboli 10/09
Currently on Humira, Omeprazole, Effexor, Seroquel, Calcium, Vit D, sublingual B12, Coumadin