I have already said hello to all the great people here at Healing , on the Chronic Pain Forum .But also feel depressed a lot and wish to reach out here as well , thank you to all . As a result of my physical issues and resulting loss of independance , I find my self depressed more than I ever , I feel trapped and its very tough to just act normal when you feel so lost and hopless .The hoplessness , the feeling of never being able to be independant again . to always be in pain . To always have to ask others for help .All these concepts are notautomatic , theres every chance I can be as I was , perhaps with some pain , but its possible I can be independant for certain . But my mind , because this stretch of time has been so hard has forgotten what that is like .I feel very hopeless at these times until I can talk to a family member, or good friend and get my head right . Because of insomnia the nights are tough , but I've learned to write and blog, but when that feeling of hoplessness comes on it scares me to death , I feel so all alone .I admit its better now I've had time to adjust somewhat , sites like this are godsends to me as is my brother and sister , the few friends I'm lucky enough to have and now friends at this site . Thank you all !!