I hope you do none of the above. Like you, I don't have many close friends, sometimes it is hard to make new ones. I've met some people online who share similar interests with me, that helps.
Here are some numbers if you need immediate help:
National Suicide Hotline
This is a combined network of the Amerian Association of Suicidology, the National Hopeline Network, CONTACT USA, and many other organizations. Call are automatically routed to the nearest crisis center to the phone from which the call for help is placed.
NDMDA Depression Hotline | Support Group. 800-826-3632
Suicide Prevention Services Crisis Hotline 800-784-2433
Suicide Prevention Services Depression Hotline 630-482-9696
Please realize you are important. Are you seeing a counselor? It may help for you to talk to your wife about
how you are feeling as well.
Jon, Co-moderator for Crohn's Disease, Depression, & Celiac Disease forums
"The man who insists upon seeing with perfect clearness before he decides, never decides. Accept life, and you must accept regret." -- Henri-Frédéric Amiel (1821-81), Swiss philosopher, poet