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cat8201
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   Posted 3/11/2010 1:54 PM (GMT -7)   
Hello, my name is Tabatha, and i usually post on the Fibromyalgia, or Pain forum but i feel i have a very appropriate input to this forum.
 
i suffered a severe trauma, medically and emotionally that activated the aforementioned fibro.  i then found out that i have the spine of an 80 year old (i'm 27) and my spinal cord is actually "touched" occassionally.
 
However, that is  not what brings me here today.  well it is, sort of...  i have been in severe pain for over two years now and i have had depression since a teenager.  after the miscarriage (just the start of the trauma) i tried wellbutrin which had worked in college and i tried cymbalta which was awful.  then i decided i just needed to change my mindset right?  wrong. 
 
i was not getting out of bed, i was not showering, i didn't care about intimacy, relationships of many sorts and all the issues of depression.  i never ate, even though i'm 100 lbs overweight, i never lost weight.  i would find ways to sleep all day, by this i mean, i'm an insomniac but would do whatever i could to sleep away the day.
 
then i decided maybe i was bipolar, and my husband said i needed help, he had always said before that i didn't need help i just needed to get through it.  i told him one day i was thinking of suicide and he said it was just a rough time.  then i said, joey this isn't working, i'm existing not living, i need help.  and later after that he said i needed help, we needed help, or we were divorcing.
 
so i went to the pyschiatrist and psychologist for the first time in 15 years.  i used to have to go as a child and i was forced to talk about issues i didn't want to talk about.  this time they assured me that i did not have to "re-traumatize" myself by talking about it.  plus they put me on abilify.
 
i'm a new person now.  the abilify has helped me SOOOOOOOOOOOO much.  i'm up every single day.  i'm working on my house, smiling with my son, talking to my friends.  i went and had a total makeover, literally.  i cut 11 inches off my hair, died it with red streaks, had my eyebrows waxed, got my nails done, and bleached my teeth.  and although i'm still battling the depression and the anxiety and ocd that i have it helps.  it is even helping me sleep.
 
so, now when i'm in severe pain i think to myself, i can be in pain laying down, or i can be in pain moving around, and i move around. 
 
this philosophy can be applied in so many aspects of our lives.
 
i'll share what my psychologist told me to help w/the depression and anxiety:
-breathe with your diaphram (believe it or not it works), we tend to breathe with our chests and it causes oxygen shortage
-stop playing the "movies" from the past over and over in my mind, and stop anticipating the "movies" of the future (easier said than done right?!), but he said when we do this we are constantly looking back and forth and not being able to see what is right there.  in order to practice he says make yourself mentally conscious of the feel of your skin on the couch, the feel of your hair, the process of "peeling potatoes".
-live life for you.  stop worrying about how you are affecting others, and if you are a "burden".  the only way the others around you can be happy for you or with you is if you are happy (last part is me saying that), but i know that i must be happy and love myself before i can anyone else, but that has been extremely hard.  we were made beautiful and precious, and we still are we just have to remember that and not worry about everyone else.
 
well that is it, as this is long enough, but the abilify and advice above led me to do a total makeover and smile much more.  i hope i can help someone else out. 
 
thank you
tabatha
 
feel free to email me anytime at cat8201 @ live.com
27 yrs old-Fibromyalgia; PCOS; Surgery induced Menopause; Classic Migraines with Aura; Neuropathy; Ankylosing Spondylitis w/ narrowing around the spinal cord; Spinal Stenosis of the Cervical & Lumbar Spine; other little things
 
Medications for pain: Oxycontin; Soma **will update when change meds for sleep, etc.
 
Other treatment: Aquatic Therapy (still have to start); Sleep Study (need a sitter)


cat8201
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Date Joined Nov 2009
Total Posts : 135
   Posted 3/11/2010 1:56 PM (GMT -7)   
i forgot to mention that they have me on lexapro too and it did nothing until the abilify was added. now i take both along with klonopin for anxiety.
27 yrs old-Fibromyalgia; PCOS; Surgery induced Menopause; Classic Migraines with Aura; Neuropathy; Ankylosing Spondylitis w/ narrowing around the spinal cord; Spinal Stenosis of the Cervical & Lumbar Spine; other little things
 
Medications for pain: Oxycontin; Soma **will update when change meds for sleep, etc.
 
Other treatment: Aquatic Therapy (still have to start); Sleep Study (need a sitter)


getting by
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   Posted 3/11/2010 2:56 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi Cat,

I am also on abilify and it has done wonders for me. I was able to start working again after not working for seven years. I get out and walk every day. I can function and not want to sleep all of the time too. I know how it can improve our lives, though it doesn't work for everybody, it has for me.

I am really happy for you with all of your improvements and for living in the now. That is all we can successfully do. And it takes a load off of us. No more worrying about the future or dwelling on the past. Just in the moment. The mind is a powerful thing, and to fine tune it like you are, you are doing great! Keep up the good work.

Hugs, Karen
  Moderator-Depression and fibromyalgia
 
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THE HAPPY TURTLE
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   Posted 3/12/2010 5:03 AM (GMT -7)   
very pleased. abilify helped me too when i needed it. as does mindfulness practice. thx 4 your post tabatha, good to here good stuff.  happy faces for you!! jamie
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