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jessyna
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   Posted 3/26/2010 2:04 PM (GMT -7)   
I am to the point to where I know I need help but don't know where to begin. But anyhow, I was diagnosed officially with depression a few years ago and was prescribed meds and I am against medication so didnt take them. I figured at the time I just needed to take charge of my life and change somethings. Because I feel that we control our lives and only I can make me better and do not want to rely on drugs.  Anyway I did some soul searching, meditation, life changes, found god, got rid of the negative people in my life,even a new job. Things were great for a long time until now. I honestly do not have anything to be depressed about, I mean I and my family are in good health I have a job a home. Really I do not have anything to be depressed about. I work in a call center and I find myself hating people now which is not me, I do not want to come to work, my family gets on my nerves which is not normal.  I can not sit for an hour if that without crying. I have to hide in my bathroom to cry because I dont know whats wrong with me. I have thought about it and have decided I dont have anything to be depressed about so what if I am crazy. I have myself almost convinced that I really am crazy. why else would i act this way. I mean I do have situations in my life that cause me to be unhappy and those things are out of my control but this started happening before those issues and now with my issues I am getting worse. I do not want to kill myself and would never but I do pray to god every single day to just let me die to let something happen to me SOMETHING. i believe in god and have put my faith in him and all but now i am starting to loose my faith again and i dont want to because since i found him my life had never been better but why would he take it all away from me.......

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   Posted 3/26/2010 3:18 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi there,

Nothing is being taken from you. It sounds like you have a chemical embalance, which requires medication, but if you don't want to do that, why don't you try therapy? I think it would really help you. It could just be the way that you are looking at things and it is easy to change your way of thinking, with the proper help. So if I were you, I would talk to your doctor and see if they can refer you to a therapist that could help you to feel better. Know that you are not crazy. If you were, you probably would not be reaching out for help. You have taken the first step on a wonderful healing journey. And know that we are here to support you all the way.

Best wishes to you my friend. Have a great day.

Hugs, Karen
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MAYBE.
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   Posted 3/26/2010 8:13 PM (GMT -7)   
Feeling such strong emotions..
Maybe you could outlet them with artistic expression?? Just a thought.
I heard it can make a diffrence when you have an excess of emotion.

THE HAPPY TURTLE
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   Posted 3/26/2010 10:18 PM (GMT -7)   
yes maybe. it is very cathartic indeed. with compassion, jamie.
YESTERDAY IS A BUTTERLY WITHOUT WINGS. (ME)
 
DX, MDD, SEVERE BORDERLINE PERSONALITY DISORDER.
 
REMEMBER TO LOVE YOU. BE YOU AND BE TRUE.


THE HAPPY TURTLE
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   Posted 3/26/2010 10:23 PM (GMT -7)   
jessyna. with the appropriate help you can resume your life. alike any other condition depression is a medical condition also, therefore with the right help it can be managed, alike any other medical condition. with compassion, jamie.
YESTERDAY IS A BUTTERLY WITHOUT WINGS. (ME)
 
DX, MDD, SEVERE BORDERLINE PERSONALITY DISORDER.
 
REMEMBER TO LOVE YOU. BE YOU AND BE TRUE.

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