It sounds like you need imediate help. Call 911 or go to one of the sites that Navy put for you.
I know that you feel hopeless, or else you wouldn't want to do these things. You act like there is nothing wrong, but evidently there is. Or else you wouldn't be feeling this way.
We are not suppose to talk about self harm or suicide on the forum, that is why I editted your post. But if you can tell us alittle about yourself without breaking rules, it would help us to help you.
If you don't do anything else, get hooked up with counseling. I think it would be essential for you and where your mind is right now. Know that somebody cares...
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