Hi christana, welcome to HW. I am sorry to hear about your situation. You certainly do not deserve to be treated that way. I can't imagine being an orphan, but please know you have found a place of comfort here. Have you been diagnosed with depression from anyone? Do you have any professional support available?
We all know how terrible depression is, and when events like yours occur, it makes it all that much harder. Just know how very important it is to look out for yourself and to take special care of yourself. Talking about it helps. We are here to help so keep posting and hopefully things will improve for you very very soon.
You are not alone ((Hugs)), Mogs