Vinny says it all for how he will feel, and that's a man's point of view so it's worth listening to. You don't say if you're on any meds or not. I used to be a screaming banchee, wicked witch of the west-type person before I was medicated... (Still not sure why my dear husband married me...) but since I've been on zoloft that person has disappeared. I'm still a know-it-all, but I'm a nice know-it-all.(LOL!) Take it easy, be kinder to yourself, ask your doctor for an anti-depressant that works and I'll pray for you, a lot!
"As one goes through life one learns if you don't paddle your own canoe you don't move."