I am new to this forum. I have a chronic illness that has taken over my life and prevents me from doing any of the things I used to enjoy. I have always felt depression but after my wife admitted to having affairs for most of our marriage while I was home sick was too hard to take. I have been in such a severe downward spiral that I cannot see much hope. i am alone and have a hard time finding friends especially since I cannot even leave the house on most days. It makes me wonder whats the point if I am going to be sick 80% of the time and alone forever. This is not a new realization for me. I am strong and I know these feelings will level off some but I cannot face the fact of spending the rest of my life alone and not feeling well. There will probably come a day when I am in desperate need of help and no one will be there. this scares me alot. What if I cannot manage to keep my job due to my illness? Who else would hire me. (i work for myself) Is there any online support groups that have chat rooms 24/7 so I can talk to someone when I;m really down. It would help alot to know I can at least talk to someone/ anyone even if it is online.
I went to a psychologist and she wouldn't listen to me. She told me my physical ailment was in my head and told me she heard enough. This set me back big time. I cannot trust anyone anymore. forget me if I'm wrong but aren't you supposed to trust your doctor and family?