Was just searching online and found this message board...not sure what I'm looking for here, but I realize talking about things just might help!
So here goes, sorry if it gets long!
I am a 41 year old female, divorced 6 years ago. My husband got custody of our boys, I get to see them every other weekend...that alone is causing most of my depression I believe. Other issues, lost my mother, she was 49, that was almost 12 years ago now, also moodiness in my dad for years, could be hereditary? Moods, attitudes get much worse during my period.
3 years ago, met the most sincere man you'll ever know, who loves me unconditionally. We lived together for about a year and last week I left him, we've been talking and doing things for the last week, and now I really don't understand completely why I left him!! I was premenapausal, I know that much! I feel like at times I love him greatly and then there are times where he completely drives me nuts, he also has a daughter, 11, who I feel is quite spoiled and that makes matters hard also. We've talked about most of the things that irritate me, but talking about his daughter is hard for me.
I was let go from my job in Novemeber, not working all winter long was extremely difficult! Now it's summer and there is more to do, which helps a little, but I need to clear up why I have this moodiness, why things irritate me so badly, why can't I let myself completely love this man, what type of depression do I have, is moodiness and depression related or separate issues.
I realize counseling might help me, but of course being laid off, makes finding the money to do so, very difficult at this point. Can you suggest some things that might help without costing a lot of money?
Thanks in advance for listening...