hi FD. my name is jamie, male, 37.
you have come to a good place. from what i have read it seems likely that you are suffering from an episode of depression. i am no dr., but i do feel that it is important that you see one. an episode of depression may come and may go, it may linger, and it may manifest differently and effect you in various ways. yes you can be predisposed. having a chat with your dr. can help identify your situation better, remember that a depressive illness can be manifested in various ways, thus having an assessement will aide with a proper understanding of your situation. if it is demed that you are living with depression then your dr. can help you with a variety of ways to help in treating this, and can on refer you to counselling.
counselling over the years has been very helpful for me, and i feel it will you. i fully understand that you are suffering, depression sucks, it is an insidious beast, but with help and understanding it can be managed. with the right help you will regain yourself back, it does take some time though. you have been brave in posting, please know that we are here for you. continue being brave and seek some assistance. sending healings your way. jamie.
YESTERDAY IS A BUTTERLY WITHOUT WINGS. (ME)
DX, MDD, SEVERE BORDERLINE PERSONALITY DISORDER.
REMEMBER TO LOVE YOU. BE YOU AND BE TRUE.