My husband is on depression meds. and he has expressed that he misses being able to feel life more fully. He does commen that he does really value how the meds. take the edge off stress, but just to say, that he also wishes he didn't need to be on them because of his emotions not feeling 'full' like before.
He doesn't mention that as much as he used to though, so I think maybe he's gotten used to it a bit, and focusing on the benefits is helpful.
Some people seem to need meds. a long time or their whole lives, while others are able to go off them at some point. So there's always a chance that you might not always need to take them. But for now, I guess just try to focus on the helpfulness they are bringing you.
The other thing you could try is looking into some natural alternatives. Of course you would need to run anything you find by your dr. and make sure it doesn't interact badly with the meds. you are on, and get his input in any changes you might want to make. Everyone is different, and I'm not saying this would be the best course of action for you, but it is an option if you felt you wanted to do some research on this.
There is a thread on this forum on rhodiola rosea. I took that for awhile and it lifted the depression I was having, but stopped working after a while. I don't know if natural remedies are as strong as meds. so may or may not be suitable for depression that is severe or long term
By the way, I can also kind of relate to what you are saying in a sense. I am coping with fibromyalgia and have had some huge improvements (natural route). The pain issues actually affected my mood and I got so used to feeling angry and agitated at times (from physiological stuff that then affected my emotions). Well, then I made some progress and the physiological pain got better and hence my emotions also evened out. Well, I actually felt empty or like I didn't know how to 'be' anymore, because things felt so peaceful suddenly. It was like losing a part of myself or at least my reality in a way. Even though it was good.
I guess though we do find ways to adjust to these things, and the biggest thing is to just trust ourselves that we have what it takes for this healing journey and to try to go with the flow the best we can each step of the way.
Take care, manyembers
Post Edited (manyembers) : 6/12/2010 10:09:28 PM (GMT-6)