lately things have just been getting worse and worse, but yet nothing extremely traumatic has happened?
I used to be first in my year academically and didn't get stressed at exam time. But last month when my summer exams came round i had touble sleeping, i couldn't concentrate, got really irritable and cried myself to sleep etc.
I think it all really hit a few months ago when i just started thinking about what i had actually done with my life and what friends i had and i realised that my life had become so isolated...
To me i feels that my main family and i (mum, dad, sister) never do anything, go anywhere or know anyone.
Like for example we have lived on a large estate for 13 years and yet i don't know any of my neighbours, i'm not very close to my family and i dont even know any of my cousins or aunts and uncles because my mum and dad don't get along with them apparentley.
We don't have any family friends and i dont really know many people outside of school, and in school i'm kind of invisible.
It just seems that all other people i know are a lot busier than me and know lots of people and are always doing lots of interesting things and my life just seems boring and pathetic.
I've tried talking to my parents about how i feel and i asked if we could go more places or if we could get to know our family or something but they just said no.
I've tried going out with a few friends from school - most of them decided not to go because they had better things to do and when i tried talking to the rest of them it just seems that they would rather be talking to someone else.
Or like no one really wants to talk to me? like even if i try to text someone i hardly ever get replies.
I really just want to meet new people and make new friends and be close to my family and just basicallly....have fun.
But i feel that no one really cares about or notices me and when i try to change i come across as desperate.
I just don't know what to do,
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