Aurora has given you some very good advice. And I agree with what she has said. It is very important that you see your doctor and let him know how you have been feeling. This could be temporary from the surgery as our body's go through a sort of shock and the healing process takes time. But none the less, I would have a talk with your doctor. You may need some counseling, or medication, be it temporary or an ongoing thing. But I think some help and support would really be good for you.
Keep posting and let us know how you are doing. I did edit your post for content. We are not allowed to discuss anything to do with suicide. But we all understand how you feel.
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