When i was little my biological father abused me. He pushed me down a
flight of stairs. It broke my nose and to this day i still have the dent.
It stopped for awhile only because my mom and i moved, but when i got older
i wanted to see him. Only the abuse got worse. i thought it was my
fault because i let my mom take me away. My mom had me go to therapy
, but it didnt help. i still had nightmares and i thought
cps was going to take me away. This all happened between the ages 2-12.
When my mom got married and we moved i thought it was over. i thought i
could finally move on. Lately i feel alone, sad, lost, empty.
I've tried to move on. My mom and stepfather think i'm happy.
So do my friends. I need someone i can talk to though. to let everything out.
I thought about going back to therapy again. Maybe it will help now that i'm
older (16) and know i wont be taken from my mom?
i dont know what to do anymore.....