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TheLonelySoul
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   Posted 7/11/2010 1:12 AM (GMT -7)   
Hello to everyone on the forum... I'm new here and forgive me for not knowing how things work out here.. anyways I'm going to introduce myself, My name is Soul and I'm 17 years old. I don't have a big family, I have a small one. Whom I love all 5 of them. I'm an only child, which makes me think sometimes... What would it be like to have an older sibling. Would life be easier for me, and how it's like to have someone older to look-up too and someone who will give me advice. But it's alright, that it wasn't like that. I have so much going on that I don't know where to start... t I've been sad as long as I could remember. I'm an incoming senior in high school, but I can remember all the pain I went through from Kindergarden till now. I don't remember my "happiest" memories clearly because I bet there wasn't much to begin with. In terms of sociability with people and my surroundings, I've always been the awkward one. I've always been the one that was alone and didn't have much friends. I was always the quiet one because no one would try to talk to me, even if I tried talking to them. This started when I was what, 6-7? and I guess this whole ordeal developed me as a person. I've always felt alone, and it saddens me. Growing up was so hard, because I guess I didn't really have a childhood? My parents were so busy working to support my family, and had such little time for me. I hardly never had a friend whom I can call my best friend, to hang out with our go to each others houses respectively and it's hard.. seeing how everyone else has at least one. This is what hurts me the most, when I walked the stage of graduating Elementary and Middle School, none of the kids or any of my classmates would at least clap. Because they think that there's something really really wrong with me. It was so embarrassing and saddening to me. I feel like it's going to happen again when I graduate High School and I'm just worried about how I'm going to survive in the real world... it's so hard for me to that I didn't have the support I wanted when growing up. Anyways, I don't want you all to keep you all reading for along time so I'll stop.. but I just wanted to introduce myself and tell you all some of the things that's going through my mind these days. I have a lot more but .. I'm not too sure.. :/ To sum this all up, does anyone know what I can do? I've never felt so alone before. I thought it was okay when I was younger, but now it's hurting me more than ever...

myjoy
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   Posted 7/11/2010 2:19 AM (GMT -7)   
Hi Soul. I'm so glad you came here to talk. By the way you write, I can tell that you would be neat to talk to. I wish I knew why some kids are treated worse/different than others....but I don't. School can be a difficult time in a person's life. The cool thing is that your soon to be done with it, except for college, which will be a whole different story from highschool. College is not a popularity contest. It's all about persuing your dreams for your future. I sure hope you intend to go there.

But.......what we have to do is deal with where you are at right now. Is there a school counselor at your high school? I would for sure go and talk with him/her about what is all bothering you. He/she may not be able to change how people treat you, but it will sure help you to talk things out.

You said you love your family very much. Can you maybe talk to your mom about what is going on for you? Perhaps your parents could get you into some counseling.

Being outgoing doesn't always help a person not get teased or picked on. Some kids decided that I was the one to ignore and/or pick on, when I was in 5th grade and 9th grade. Those were very tough years for me, but I have a husband and 2 kids, and many friends. What has happened in the past, is not an indication of your whole life.

Having siblings can be a neat thing or a not so nice thing. I am the oldest, and have 2 brothers and one sister. I am close to my one brother, but my sister can't stand me (she's 38 and I'm 47). She has called me ugly to my face, and even put down my kids. She's a real angry gal....so I don't let what she says bother me. My other brother is an alcoholic.

Soul, you have a wonderful future before you. Try not to think about the past so much, and just take one day at a time. Soon high school will be done, and you will be on your way to making a life for yourself. Keep talking - we are here for you.
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getting by
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   Posted 7/11/2010 7:32 AM (GMT -7)   
Hi Soul,
 
Welcome to the HealingWell Depression forum.  You have come to a good place.
 
Myjoy is totally right.  College is so different from school.  You are all persueing your own thing and nobody picks on you.  You make friends easy, meet people from different areas.  But the main thing is working on your studies.  It is all up to you.  If you skip a class, well, that is your loss.  I think you know what I mean. 
 
Kids can be cruel.  I went through a terrible thing when I was in the 9th grade.  A group of kids decided to beat me up.  I got away and ran all the way home.  It was awful.  It left scars for a long time.  I never trusted women after that.  I had only male friends.  But now it different.   I do have female friends now.  I have a lot more confidence.  It is sad how something from our past can effect us for so long.  But that is only if you let it.  I would also recommend counseling for you.  It would boost your self esteem and help you a lot.  So think about it.  You could use the extra support.
 
In the meantime, keep posting and let us know how you are doing.
 
Hugs, Karen
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TheLonelySoul
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Date Joined Jul 2010
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   Posted 7/13/2010 2:47 PM (GMT -7)   
@ Myjoy - Thank you very much... I try to be literate as much as possible.. people don't tend to take teens seriously, like those people who criticized me on Yahoo! Answers because of the way I used to type. You seem like a great person to talk too as well... I kind of like talking to adults more than teens or younger people because sometimes they can give advice.. Ah, I was on the chat a few days ago and I told them about my school counselor who isn't much of help.. They don't seem to care or at least act like they do, which makes me feel like I'm wasting not only their time but mine. I love my mom, and I wish I could tell her how I really feel.. I tell her little by little, but I just don't want to tell her everything because, my family isn't rich or near being middle class. My parents are struggling on their own and they seem to be having lots more problems on their own.. I don't want them to have another thing to worry about.. I just don't want them to feel like they aren't doing anything for me, but it's the other way around.. I can't seem to do anything for them because not only my life is hard enough, there's is too.. I try not to think about my past, but it's hard not too... because of the choices I made in the past seem to be coming back to haunt me and mess up my plans for the future and it hurts...

TheLonelySoul
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Date Joined Jul 2010
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   Posted 7/13/2010 2:56 PM (GMT -7)   
@ Karen - Thank you also for your reply.. it means a lot. I just hope I can make it to college... I honestly don't have the best grades out there and I don't think my parents can pay for the tuition.. It's hard to not have the basic needs for school.. I most of the time have to ask to borrow a pencil or paper from the person or teacher... I don't know, it's one of the things that's been bothering me.. not all of my sadness and hurt come from this.. there's so much and I just don't know how to deal with this anymore.. I feel like I'm never good enough or WILL be good enough for myself or for my family... I just wish I can start my life over again.. but I can't. Thanks Karen.. I'm sorry that happened to you and you had to go through that.. you seem like a great person, and I can't believe you were put through that.. Anyways, I'll try too..

getting by
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   Posted 7/13/2010 5:40 PM (GMT -7)   
Bad things sometimes happen to good people in life, but I have always found out, what comes around goes around.  So people get theirs in another way. 
 
You sound like a very intelligent young adult and I think you will go far.  There is always grants and loans for college.  I didn't have really good highschool grades, but I got a grant because of low income.  So think about applying for one. 
 
Hugs, Karen
  Moderator-Depression and fibromyalgia
 
fibromyalgia, Chronic fatigue, depression,allergies

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