Hi Soul. I'm so glad you came here to talk. By the way you write, I can tell that you would be neat to talk to. I wish I knew why some kids are treated worse/different than others....but I don't. School can be a difficult time in a person's life. The cool thing is that your soon to be done with it, except for college, which will be a whole different story from highschool. College is not a popularity contest. It's all about
persuing your dreams for your future. I sure hope you intend to go there.
But.......what we have to do is deal with where you are at right now. Is there a school counselor at your high school? I would for sure go and talk with him/her about
what is all bothering you. He/she may not be able to change how people treat you, but it will sure help you to talk things out.
You said you love your family very much. Can you maybe talk to your mom about
what is going on for you? Perhaps your parents could get you into some counseling.
Being outgoing doesn't always help a person not get teased or picked on. Some kids decided that I was the one to ignore and/or pick on, when I was in 5th grade and 9th grade. Those were very tough years for me, but I have a husband and 2 kids, and many friends. What has happened in the past, is not an indication of your whole life.
Having siblings can be a neat thing or a not so nice thing. I am the oldest, and have 2 brothers and one sister. I am close to my one brother, but my sister can't stand me (she's 38 and I'm 47). She has called me ugly to my face, and even put down my kids. She's a real angry gal....so I don't let what she says bother me. My other brother is an alcoholic.
Soul, you have a wonderful future before you. Try not to think about
the past so much, and just take one day at a time. Soon high school will be done, and you will be on your way to making a life for yourself. Keep talking - we are here for you.
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