I moved your post off of the other thread and started you your own thread because you will get more recognition here. I feel you have a lot of issues going on right now that need to be addressed.
Are you able to control the children at school? Maybe you should get a younger group of kids. I know that it is hard these days as we aren't even able to correct our children anymore. They get very unruly. Have patience. And if this is something you love, keep persueing it. But if it gets too stressful, move on to something else.
Keep your chin up. Take life one day at a time. Very important.
Here is a poem called Desiderata. Follow the link. I think you will appreciated this.
Read this, it says a lot.
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