Welcome to the HealingWell Depression forum. I am so glad that you have joined us.
I am sure that it is so hard being a full time parent and parent. Yes, you are both the mother and father. And I am truly sorry for your situation. But you must be doing something right if you are getting complements on how well behaved your children are.
Being calm and cool when you are alone with them I am sure is a challenge. They are at the ages of wanting to get into things and wanting to play all the time, and that is only natural for them. And it is only natural that you lose your temper now and then. You are human after all. I am sure that you are a very good parent. But if you are questioning your sanity at this point, maybe you should talk to a counselor. They will help you through this. They can teach you coping skills for any situation. And being the only parent, I am sure that you could use some support now and then. By the way, is the doner paying his child support? I sure hope so.
You do have a lot on your plate. Coming here is a good place especially if you need to vent, or talk about anything for that matter. Your problems, your triumphs, whatever you feel the need to get off of your chest. Everybody here is so kind and supportive. I am sure that you will be glad that you have joined us.
Deep breathing and meditation is a good thing to do so that you can keep your cool when things get tense. It calms us and relieves anxiety. Counting to 10 is another good one. Remember that you are doing a great job and that it isn't easy by any means. Keep up the good work. Keep posting.
Welcome to the HealingWell Depression forum. I can most certainly see where you would feel agitated. It is truly understandable. I am quitting smoking and I have been on edge for a couple of days here and I totally understand how it feels. I am doing everything that I can not to lose it.
I could see where Wellbutrin could cause your blood pressure to go up. I think it is a good idea that you are going to the doctor and switching the med, especially if it isn't helping you. There are many others to try. Effexor is similar to wellbutrin and it has a generic now. So maybe they will try that. I take pristiq. I took effexor for years. It worked well for me, but I took a super high dose. 375mg a day. That was five capsules. With pristiq, I only have to take one pill a day. But I understand that it is really expensive, my insurance pays all but 20.00. I pay the 20.00.
I am glad that your ex is paying something. It is better than nothing at all, which happens a lot. Though it doesn't go very far, I truly understand your predictament. Did he pay for her glasses? I hope so. I am glad that she got them. It is so important for her to have good eyesight.
Keep posting and let us know how you are doing. Remember you are a good mom and love your children. That is most important. You are doing what is best for them and that is what it is all about. Keep up the good work. And keep grinning so you all can laugh. It sounds like you have a good relationship with your kids. That is super!!!
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