Hi i am new to this and i don't really know how this works but it's 4:05 a.m and i can't go to sleep I been through some hard times and i think all the sadness in me has turned into hate which makes me really sad and depressed
i had an awesome life i just graduated from high school, i am 18 and i am currently working, i live with my sister, my parents live in Mexico i am mexican american and i been living away from my parents seance i was 12 years old. I really miss them
i had a wonderful family but last year my mother called me and told me that they were getting divorced. that really broke my heart well finally this year i got over it and everything was going alright.
I meet a wonderful guy and he stole my hear, sure we had our disagreements but nothing big... My sister she's always been really sportive and has always give me everything she's like a mother to me.. but this month everything changed
idk what i did wrong maybe everything. My sister works in the same place where my boyfriend works and she would come home and tell me things about
my bf. 3 weeks ago this one asian lady started to work there and my sister would tell me that my bf was paying to much attention to her and i ignored her because my bf is like that he is very outgoing, talks to everyone, he is caring and nice, so i just ignored my sister. well as the week pass by my sister would always come home and tell me how he was always talking to her and how everybody there was sayn that he liked her and that they were messing around and i got very upset and jealous so i text him and i told him that i didn't like that.. (i had told him before to stop talking to her to avoid problems between us but he didn't listen) and i got tired of hearing my sister telling me the same over and over again so i broke up with him.. it was horrible because i love him.. the next day he called me (thats when i broke up with him) we were talking about
how everything had changed about
what was going on and he told me he didn;t have nothing to do with her and all this stuff.. wile i was talking to him my sister called on the other line and she sounded hurt i ask what was going on but she didn't tell me so i texted her friend and ask her and she told me that my sis wasn't feeling ok and that they were going to take her to the hospital so i got sadder
i was worried about
her and i was hart broken :( later on i went to the hospital and my sis had surgery it was her appendix.. i had to much going on in my head and didn't had no one to talk to.. wile my sister was at the hospital she would talk to me about
my bf telling me that i deserved some one better that i was pretty and that i always been good and all this kinds of things and it would hurt me so much because inside i was dieing i had no one to talk to and everything was inside all my feelings were smashed in
but i didn't show it because i was trying to be strong for her... my bf he never stop texting me and asking me how i was doing. it was me the one that was trying to ignore him even when i was dying inside wanting to see him so bad and hug him. the next day i received a called from my bf and he was really upset he told me to forget about
him, to move on, and that it was better if we just stop talking and i started crying and i ask him why.. i ask him why he was giving up on us so fast & he told me that my sister had called him telling him to stop talking to me, she told him to delete all my pics from his cell and all this things and i got really upset i cried my eyes out.. then i went to my sisters room and asked her why she was doing this to me.. why was she getting into it.. she had no right, i never get into her relationships i was really really sad... when she saw me she told me that she was sry and that she didn't wanted me with him because i deserved better.. then she apologize and told me that she was also going to apologize to him.. i told her it was to late for that cuz he had told me that he wasn't going to talk to him any more.. ever seance that i became depressed and i would jxt stay in my room and cry or sleep...
this week is been the worst my sister got mad at me (i would tell you the story but i don;t wanna make this longer) and she ask me to live the house.. so i was trying to save up money for college but my plans have changed, now i have to save money to get a place to live cuz i got no body else and yes i am back with my bf but i decide not to tell my sister cuz i don't want her getting into my live.. and my bf offered to move in with me to help me out pay the bills and stuff.. honestly i don't want to move in with him because i am an "old fashion girl" i guess and i don't wanna live with a guy with out being married but i have no choice :( i am really going to need help and this is the only way i am going to be able to pay the bills.. idk what else to do.. this is not how my life was supposed to be i always been trying my best to be good and i been good.. so plz help me tell me what i should do.. should i move in with him? or not?