hi gang, sorry been awhile.
okay, got the melatonin, 2mg. 1 month supply. doc wants me to take it with the seroquel. sugars are stuffed, cholesterol and lipids too. was to see the doc today, cancelled muscles seized. starting fish oil tabs soon. a lot of vomiting, anxiety and diaroeah. i am extremely depressed and anxious, been vomiting before every appt, and i have had loads, i lost control of my bladder with the diabetes educator 2 weeks ago. she understood and knows that i am stressing. not seing the lady tonight, i need her to make some moves, i can't do anymore at this time.
seen mum last tues, she is good, brother much better, and is receiving psychosocial support. i am tired and run down. steve has been with me over 2 weeks, my compassionate side kicked in. he is much better, is helping and giving me space. we are actually good mates, he just sought of forgot about me before he became unwell. he is honest, and listens.
okay so i am practicing what i am preaching.....i am going back into therapy, done some research on a charity that sees people on a sliding fee scale. first appt is next mon. not nervous-something i actually need. he is a social worker, do not like shrinks, actually i am over them, and with my run i should be!!! never liked psychologists much......err behaviourists!!! not a fan of cbt either. he works on grief and relationships....with a speciality in mens development-perfect. so the insulin goes up 2 more increments, need to get the stress and anxiety down and need some healing sleep.
did the epilepsy training whilst in melbourne. it was worth it. fantastic workshop, educator, speakers and plenty of take home info. i took a management plan for the lady-providing this relationship starts up properly and what to do on sick days, etc, etc. i shared my experiences with 2 people dying from seizures and one because of the chronic nature actually took his life. i also learnt that people who have suffered a stroke are a massive precussor for becoming epileptic.
hoping the melatonin works. i really need some sleep. thx 4 reading this and your care and support. i have been doing a lot of caring work lately. brain is frazzled. luv 2 you all. sorry that i have only been periodically around. other stuff, maybe in the next smaller post!!!
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