I've always felt like a confident guy. I've also always thought that it is kind of ridiculous to develop feelings for someone that you have never met face to face. I'm eating my own feelings. I've developed feelings for someone that I met through a game. It didnt start then. It kind of began with meeting her within this game, then adding her on facebook, then actually talking to her. We've just had such deep conversations. I cant do proper justice to it over here. Lets just say that she has shared things with me that she has never shared, and I have never found that I have more in common with anyone that I do with her. I've been talking to her all the time for about
a week now. I just hate this for some reason. I feel completely miserable. I'm barely even eating. I've always thought things like this are ridiculous, in fact, I am still telling myself that it is. This doesn't make any sense. I'm not being logical. It's just one of those things where I just know. It sounds ridiculous, I know, but I have never felt this way.
Here's the bad part: she has a boyfriend. Now, I've been talking to her, and she is not satisfied with him, and will likely break up with him soon. He is not a good guy. This sounds crazy, but my instincts are good. I have never been wrong about
a thing like this. I can hear the sincerity in her voice. This doesn't make any sense for her to do and not be sincere. By the way, just fyi, I live in Georgia, and she lives 5 hours away in Florida. I am 20, and she is 17.
I know, this sounds absolutely ridiculous, I agree, and don't think I am somebody who is prone to developing feelings for somebody they have never seen face to face. I've talked to her a lot. I'm not a fool. Now, I do feel like an idiot for ever pursuing anything this darn ridiculous. But I can't help the way that I feel. I can't help that I feel absolutely miserable. Believe me, if I could just get rid of this, I would. But I can't. Last night, we literally talked nonstop from about
12:30 to 5 AM.
I have a plan. I am going to talk to her tonight and see what is going on with her boyfriend. I am not doing anything else until that is resolved. I will try to say it in a flirty and humorous manner like "You know, the more I talk to you the more I think to myself about
how much it sucks that you aren't single and that you live so far away". Is that a good idea? I think it would be interesting to see how she responds to that.
Here is the main reason I made this thread. I want to not feel miserable. I want to go back to actually being able to enjoy myself. I want to go back to actually being able to feel hunger. How can I do this? I just want to not hurt anymore. I don't want to hear that this is a lost cause, or that I am playing a fools game. All I want is advice in how to go about
this, and how to go back to actually being in a decent mood.
Let me reiterate, I know how crazy this sounds. Also let me state that everything that i am saying runs on the condition that she breaks up with her boyfriend. I am not going to help someone cheat. Let me also say that yes, I am not blind, I do have a small amount of suspicion over this. Just trust me on this, I KNOW that I am right here. I've always been a guy that knows a good thing when he sees it. I haven't been wrong on something like this before. I just need ways to cope with this misery, and some advice to push me in the right direction.
Post Edited (GavinB) : 8/14/2010 5:09:59 PM (GMT-6)