Can any one help me?
In less than a week i am going to be reminded of what i done a year ago, however there has never a day gone by that it hasnt ran through my head. To cut a long, complicated story short, i met my partner and we fell for each other straight away, only after the first time of making love, 8 weeks later i found out i was pregnant. When i told my partner, we discussed the options we had and at the time we decided that having a termination was "for the best". only it wasnt. My partner has a little girl, whom i love dearly, however every time i see her bedroom in our home, it breaks my heart. I now realised i made a very big mistake. Over the past year it has caused me great upset and pushed a gap between me and my partner. i need some one to talk to me. i cry most days about what i did and i know deep down i cannot forgive myself or him. i feel as if i done it to please him, but at the time it seemed right. i am going into my final year at university so that was one of the counter factors as to why. my best friend has just told me she is 18 weeks pregnant and i went into melt down. after she left i just cried. my partner dosent understand, he said there wasnt a day went by where he didnt think about what could have been or our child etc and when we had the most recent blow out about it he said he had come to accept and move on! how can he do that?????? i need help. i want to stop crying and find piece.