WearyRAsufferer,- ya i think we should chat more. thks
Actually i really don know what i'm doing. ppl around me say that verbal abuse can be tolerated and most women do that, but i feel it's too much for me to take. I've totally lost my love. Everyone say that my hubby is a responsible and great guy to be with. but i really don know. I've always thought of all the good things and memories he has done for me and forget and forgive his mistake but now i really cannot.
I cry every night thinking how did i lose the love for him, i was so hurt by his words, soooo deeply but he say that he say it out of anger and he didn't mean it. my point is how can you hurt someone you love with words even when you are angry. I told to his face that i have lost the love, and all he could say is he won't let go of me and that i should stop thinking about leaving amd work out the relationship. But how to???? i'm just going crazy.
He at times make me think that i'm imagining things and that this an excuse i'm giving.
I really don know how on earth i can work it out with him. I just want out. i just started hating guys alot and i just can't take it. its soooo painful.
Do you think i'm really making a mistake. i mean i've tried my level best to be a good wife. I use to love him so much. i would do anything for him, but i've totally lost that love. Feel so numb. do you call this depression. i just hate myself.