I'm new to these boards, and a little nervous, to be perfectly honest. I sought the aid of a counselor last year, and got nowhere. I was just too uncomfortable and wasn't sure that I could completely trust him. Trust issues are big for me. Anyway, I am hoping that the barrier that is the internet will help, and I can find some advice, support and maybe make a new friend or two here.
I'm a senior in college getting ready to graduate. Scared, but excited at the same time. I should be happy and focused, but I can't find the energy to do either. Instead, I'm stuck dwelling on all the negative things that are going on, and I'm completely discounting the good things. Even in the most perfect of situations I find myself slipping into a really depressive place. Like a catatonic state of sorts. I don't know how to avoid or deal with these. The past is another difficult thing for me as well. I've coped with eating disorders since high school, and my fiance just left me because of it. Apparently for those closest to me, I am too difficult to handle. Too high maintenance.
Does anyone have any good advice for me? Anything I can do or try. I feel like I'm at my wits end on so many fronts. The good days don't seem to balance out the bad ones anymore. I know that I need to make some changes in my life, I just don't know where to start or even how. I would love any advice or even an understanding story to let me know I'm not the only one. Thanks for listening to me rant.