Late 30's. We have been married for almost 15 years. I have just recently gone to therapy/counseling and been diagnosed with depression. Looking back it has been going on roughly since my early teens. I just never recognized it. I started Paxil about 9 weeks ago after asking my doc about my worrying about things and high blood pressure. Then the counselor increased the dosage on the Paxil. I am not sure the Paxil ever helps me relax and not worry.
My depression leads me to not like myself or think I am good enough for my wife who I have known since high school. When I get depressed I begin to question her love for me and I question if she is having or has had an affair. Things are rough now. We start counseling together this Wed.
She has been going to counseling as well trying to determine why she is the way she is! Her dad died when she was in elementary school. She is an only child of a recovering alcoholic. Apparently my last deep episode of depression caused her to break. She tellls me she is trying to work through this. I just feel like she has abandoned me due to my depression. I just hope her love is strong enough to get through this.