thank u, liza for taking the time out to reply to my post, i'm sorry for your loss, and i too say a prayer for you and yours sadly departed.
Your words, so sincere.. made me cry a bit.. mostly for my selfishness and also because i imagine you to be a strong and resilient woman like my nan was, my mum is and my sisters are. Already you help me remember the promise i made for them and my nieces and nephew.. never again to try and take my own life or self harm no matter how hard it gets...
You see I love, and i know they love me too but somehow in this my depression or whatever, love is not the solution.
I lost my Nan 2 christmases ago. i also find myself yearning for some sign from her.. some words of wisdom to let me know that she knows and it'll all be ok. Its not so easy for me to talk to people about my depression and although so many times i got my strength from wrapping my arms around her and burying my head in her chest, breathing in her scent.. she also had the most uncanny ability to say exactly the right thing But my Nana did all this without ever knowing that i suffered from depression. Now she's gone i regret that deeply. What if she knew exactly the right thing to say to make me not feel like this anymore?
thank u for replying to my post too. add hypocrite to my list of sins because i hate it when people put themselves down. i read some of your previous comments and you provide such good advice to so many lost souls mine now included that you can delete lazy,failure and worthless from the list of words u use to describe urself. Thank you for taking the time to answer my post. i hope you too find ur reason to live well, long and happily and i wish you all the best ...
Limsy, you're only a hypocrite if you proclaim a goal, knowing that you do not believe it to be right. You're not a hypocrite if you say you want to do something, and then you fail to do it sometimes. That's called being human - and until you fail, you can't understand others failings. And who knows, maybe your failures will help others here live with their own problems.
( If you want consistency, try porridge - you'll rarely find it in the human race !)
Post Edited (limsy) : 3/18/2005 5:56:31 AM (GMT-7)