Well, it seems to be a long road for some of us and, there can be what I call Rabbit Trails, off to the side once in a while.
I do find that setting Attainable Goals is a major portion of my attitude. I keep them in reason. I know that I will probably cry daily and, that it's ok because crying is a safety valve.
The secret to this is to be patient. You didn't become depressed in one instant, it was building for a while. Likewise, it will take a little bit to come out of it.
Do what you can each day and there will come a better day.
I know what you are going through. I used to cry almost every day and it seems I felt nothing but sadness. Trust me when I tell you that it does get better. Through this suffering you will gain priceless wisdom. Are you currently taking medication? If so which one(s)? I am taking Cymbalta and that seems to be working well. I hope that you feel better soon.
Thanks Raindance and jersey2 for the kind words of encouragement. I am taking Remeron and the doctor just added Cephelor (sp) its a new drug out but I take it with the remeron, I just started it this morning so I guess its going to take a bit to really see the affects.
The know eventually the depression will lift but there are days like today when I feel that the crying will never end and I will feel like this forever. I am in therapy one on one and than I also do group therapy but again I have just started this so I guess time will tell.
Thanks guys for your support it really helps to know there are people that understand how you are feeling...
Keep me posted on how you're feeling. I've never heard of those medications. Are they considered mood stabilizers? How long have you been depressed? ~ Jersey 2
I started suffering from depression in my early teens. This was 13 years ago. I was hospitalized three times when I was 16 and 17 because I felt suicidal. I used to cut myself and I also overdosed on different pills a couple of times. The past 10 years have been very unstable for me. It is such a relief to FINALLY feel a sense of peace. The Cymbalta has helped significantly. I have tried MANY different medications. I used to cry almost every day. (and PMS was HELL) I can't explain how content it makes me feel to just be able to get through the day without crying or feeling very sad. Are you working now? I know that if a person has too much time to think that can make depression worse. Thanks for the reply,
I can't wait to get to that point where I feel peace each day instead of getting up and crying and feeling down all day. I don't work I have alot of trouble with my stomach and have been on disability since 1996, your right when you have to much time on your hands you think to much. I try to keep busy when I can if I'm feeling up to it. I went to the movies this afternoon with my gf and mom, I find thru the week I am busy with appts etc but the weekends I find long.
Sounds like you have come a long way Jersey, congrats! Its not easy dealing with depression esp when people don't understand they think you can just snap out of it.
We can respond to irritation with a smile instead of scowl, or by giving warm praise instead of icy indifference. By our being understanding instead of abrupt, others, in turn, may decide to hold on a little longer rather than to give way. Love, patience, and meekness can be just as contagious as rudeness and crudeness.
Hello. Thank you for the input. For many years I saw everything in a "dark" way. Everything I looked at appeared sad. I still feel that way sometimes, but thankfully my mood changes. I feel that we are all brought to a difficult point so that we can know what true peace is. I can truly appreciate being able to simply get through every day now because I used to cry so much. Thanks again, Jersey 2
Hello. I hope you're feeling all right today. It is good that you try to keep busy during the week. I know that it can feel lonely when others don't understand the moods that you're in. Believe me, if we could "snap out of it" we would! Going to school a couple of nights a week helps me to keep busy. I also volunteered at the animal shelter for a while. Sometimes I would cry when I was there but being around the animals and other people helped me out of the mood. Do you write a journal? I know that helps too. You will be able to see how you're progressing.
Thanks Cincygirl for the kind words, it does help to know that people do understand. The doctor has added a new drug to the one I am already taking and I know that it takes awhile for the drug to start working but I just wish it would hurry up! I hate this down, weepy feeling everyday when I wake up I never know what I am going to feel like. Some days I wake up and feel its going to be a great day, than half way thru the day I get that scared and down weepy feeling and the crying starts again.
Hope everyone has a good weekend!
Thanks for the kind words, depression just sucks glad to hear you are in counselling. I am in group counselling and one on one but its only been a month but I do feel its helping me.
I also take two different antidepressant but one she just started last week so it really hasn't had a chance to kick in yet. I can imagine its hard facing your X at school but at least you are staying with it and that is a good thing.
How long were you married? Do you have any kids? You said it was all your fault if you don't mind me asking what happened?
Hi Dark Cloud,
I know that life's ups and downs are tough enough and when you're depressed as well you don't feel the strength to go through anything. Trust me, things will get better. I'm not sure how old you are but I know that my teens and early twenties were hell. I was terribly insecure and sad. But because of this I now can feel true peace at times. This experience will give you so much strength. Let me know how you're doing.
My name is Margo. I am not one to talk cause I have the uncontrolable fits myself. I do know that it is easier for me when I do not put so much pressure on the crying. tell yourself it is ok to be sad. I find myself hiddingin the bathroom crying. You see I work and live at home with my husband and brother in law and home school my daughter so privacy is out. I remember family leaving from a visit recently. I cried like a baby. My Sister, brother in law, niece and nephew said no crying. Why not. it is only normal. you are going through more than most ever will. I know how you feel. I am off meds and looking to go back on. Every little thing has me upset. I want to find an island all to myself, but I know I am not the only one who feels this way. You are stronger than you think. I have faith in you. Life is too short. Anything that makes you happy that doesn't hurt others, do it. I sit and play the same song over and over agin on my CD player. Just a song that makes me feel better. No one else hears it. No one else needs to know. It is mine. For me. Hold something special in your hand. Maybe keep it in your pocket. A rock suck as a rock I found at my father's grave. I feel the tears come and I rub it between my fingers. Look. I know you feel Yuck, but you are special. I know it just as I know I am. We just have a hard time feeling it. Too much emotion. I guess it could be worse. My husband doesn't feel his. He cannot conect with them. Please feel free to emal me if you wish. firstname.lastname@example.org.
you take care and do what it takes to be happy in this world...
even if it means emailing a stranger. I will not judge you. I to have problems and have to seek a Doctor for relief.
Margo (Someone Who Cares If You Are Happy)
Nice to meet you, thank you for asking about me. The meds are starting to kick in now we just upped one of the meds another 5, I'm not crying all the time like I was and I don't feel so down all the time either. But I am still having bad days where my anxiety is high so having anxiety attacks but the doc said upping the meds another 5 will ease off the anxiety attacks and hopefully make me more stable. I am in one on one couselling with the therapist plus I am in group therapy there is about 6 of us and two counsellors and I really enjoy the group.
I will be glad when this depression lifts it sucks big time.
The weather is getting nicer now so that helps to be able to get out and walk and work around the yard.