We can respond to irritation with a smile instead of scowl, or by giving warm praise instead of icy indifference. By our being understanding instead of abrupt, others, in turn, may decide to hold on a little longer rather than to give way. Love, patience, and meekness can be just as contagious as rudeness and crudeness.
Love your tag under your name.. ! haha.. Well, at least you haven't lost your sense of humor..
Couldn't help but think of myself, as I read your post. Yep. With the exception of just a couple of things, you are my mirror image.
Post Edited (RainDance) : 3/30/2005 10:17:45 AM (GMT-7)
I'm new today, but your post touched me. The symptoms you describe mirror my own, but you seem to have so many more reasons to have them than I do. My depression was triggered by a bereavement 18 months ago that I can't seem to get over - only finally diagnosed following breakdown in Jan.
Help is out there - I wish I had known about this site before, perhaps I wouldn't have got as desperate as I did. The advice given is sound. Get help soon - we're not superhuman and i'm learning that it is OK to be less than perfect.
Good luck and big hugs
Thats great advice you have given me, (now I just have to remember it)! I am on amitripline 50mg, citroplam 20mg, ibrophen 3 times daily, co-dydramol every 4 hours, temazapan 1 or 2 a week, the doc wont let me take them daily. and a concocgation of drugs for nose allergies!!! I attend a cpn for the depression but she is of no help, and I know where my problems stem from but she doesnt seem to want to go back that far in life.
A short run down on it:-
Arranged marriage because of pregnancy at 20, first child born healthy and well, second child came along 18 months later, congenital heart disease, was left on my won at the hospital to watch my son die, terrible time. and he didnt die in the hospital, he waited until he was allowed home at 6 months old and died in his cot a week later. Hubby turned into a mad man, abuse, violence, mental torture, throwing knives at me, threatening to kill, and so on.... along come 3 child due to be abused from hubby, fine well and healthy, and I had to flea from my house as hubby went of the rockers and just missed me with the bread knife.
So meet the next hubby a few years later he was an old friend from hume, whom I knew well, as far as I could see all was going we had 2 girls and then I had a miscarraige, he left me at the hospital, and went camping with his mother! but got back on track, and I fell pregnant again, only to come home one evening from being out with the kids to find he had fled to house and took all with him. He left me 7 months pregnant with nothing but a christmas tree (he left the lights on it too, kind man!!!) so as you can see I think i would have a lot to talk about to the councellor, but she doesnt seem to want to know, what sould I do?
Sorry folks but this is very long!!!!
Well, I believe most counselors would have no problem discussing "old," issues with you, as people are an accumlation of their lives.
Personally, I would change counselors. We pay them and they are our employees but, we forget that most of the time.
Good luck.. !