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SpilledCawfee
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   Posted 5/19/2005 6:19 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi everyone,
 
I am in yet another depression spiral.  But this is really fustrating and once again I am considering seeking help and/or medication.
 
I have goals in life and things I want to do but I cant stay focused. My brain is all over the place and I cant concentrate on one thing for decent amount of time.  I go to work everyday and have all these different things to do, but thinking about tackling them gets overwhelming and so I end up doing nothing.  Same thing at home, so I have stacks of magazines that needs to be thrown out, dust bunnies and projects that never get completed. A couple years ago like once a month I would get so depressed that I would go for a day or two feeling like I was in darkness or there was a darkness inside my head, and I literally could not speak to anyone unless I absolutely had to. I dont really have those days anymore but the depression is still here and its fustrating.  I am tired all the time, and completely anti social. I lost over 100 pounds in the last two years and I thought that would help me with my anti social issues but it hasnt.  I would rather not deal with humans unless I really have to. I will come home from work on friday and not leave my house again until monday morning.  I know my depression is from several things, childhood abuse, fustrated at life, hating my job, and being anemic.  I also think it runs in the family.  So now I start the journey of finding a therapist who is not an idiot (i tried once before didnt like him).  I'm also paranoid about medication but I may have to give in because this is ridiculous and really pissing me off. 
 
Sorry for the rant I had to let that out. thanks for listening.

AlwaysRosie
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   Posted 5/19/2005 7:38 PM (GMT -7)   
Welcome SpilledCawfee!!

If you are anemic, why isn't your doctor getting that under control???? That is a serious health issue and your energy will always be faint if your iron is low. I would certainly get a different doc if the current doc hasn't addressed this.

CONGRATULATIONS!! on losing that weight!!! You rock!!

Please tell us how you did that!!

If you educate yourself about the meds, you won't be so afraid of them. They help your body to adjust it's brain chemicals so that your brain fires properly. You would not hesitate to take insulin if you needed it. This is a similar thing.

Welcome again and Keep us posted!!
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   Posted 5/20/2005 9:21 AM (GMT -7)   
Welcome, and rant away. We all need to at some point in time.


We can respond to irritation with a smile instead of scowl, or by giving warm praise instead of icy indifference. By our being understanding instead of abrupt, others, in turn, may decide to hold on a little longer rather than to give way. Love, patience, and meekness can be just as contagious as rudeness and crudeness.
 
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Having2LeftFeet
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   Posted 5/20/2005 11:36 AM (GMT -7)   

smurf  JEEEEZZZZZZZZZZZZ,

You poor thing. No wonder you are so not motivated and tired. Do like the others advise. Go to the doc. Anema will make you feel exactly like you do. I will toss ya a prayer too. God is never on vacation!

 

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There is no such word as can't. Can't simply means wouln't. Grab as much as life as you can. Future is a long way away for those who don't believe. Don't build a foundation of life on sand. It will take it away with the tide. Love a little more, be unkind a lot less.


Dognut
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   Posted 5/20/2005 7:02 PM (GMT -7)   
Boy can I ever relate to the being so overwhelmed that you get kind of 'frozen' in place and just do nothing. It sounds so much like me!

I have skills and ideas and have done some great projects in the past, and have anumber of 'incomplete' projects around my house - but just can't seem to motivate myself to finish them.

i start on one thing ( like sorting magazines) find a book and go to put it away, decide the bookshelves are dusty and go to get a rag - can't find the 'Endust' and get sidetracked by the huge laundry pile in the basement. I put a load of clothes in to wash, and take a wrinkled load out of the dryer (it's been there for two days) but it's underwear and towels, so it doesn't really matter if they're wrinkled. I take them upstairs to put away...While I'm folding clothes I start to play with the dog - and the next thing you know, nothing is done.

Most of the time, I have great intentions in the morning - but once I get my son off to school - unless I've been called in to work that day (I'm a substitute teacher) - by the time I get back from taking him to school, I'm already exhausted and lay down to take a nap or rest, and the next thing you know - the day is shot.

Either way - I look around my house, and it's a disaster - and yet, I can't really explain WHY?

I'm tired all the time, yet I (usually) get enough sleep at night.

I actually feel better, if more tired, on the days i work - because even though there is more required of me, the 'structure' of having to follow a teacher's schedule pushes aside all those posibilities and descision waiting at home - and gives me something concrete to follow.

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somone above mentioned ADD, and I am an adult with ADD and Depression - if you are so easily distracted, you might look into it, too. Your name doesn't say for sure - but something gave me the idea you were female? Many, many women are misdiagnosed and/ or treated for Depression, when they are really ADD. and many women with ADD, also have depression, because of dealing with the frustration of untreated ADD for so many years! Almost every adult with ADD that I know, recognised it in themselves after reading about it, or having a relative or child who was diagnosed with it. Even if you DON'T have ADD - some of the behavioral techniques and ideas can be very helpful to someone dealing with depression - so it's worth learning a bit about it. Go to your public library or look up Sari Solden on the Web - she has written a number of excellent books about women and ADD that might help you, whether you DO have it or not.

Medication can help - but it's only part of the solution for any of these problems. You should not be afraid of medication - if you educate yourself about what you have and what you are taking, and are working with your doctor.

Much of Depression and/or ADD - or any other mental disorder is CHEMICAL. If your body isn't making or using the right blend of chemicals for itself, then what is wrong with providing them artificially? Why do we beat ourselves up for needing them? It's no different than providing someone with antihistamines because their body doesn't produce enough, making them sneeze - or taking an antacid to settle your stomach - or insulin for a diabetic. If someone is suffering, and the medical means exist to ease that suffering, it should be used!

By the way - congratulations on losing the weight! I have had a weight problem all my life, and the only thing that ever worked for me was Phen-Fen - remember that? I had NO problems with it, it worked well, no side effects. It also had the effect of balancing my ADD 'mental' chemistry as well (the stimulant in the Phentermine).
I would be very interested to hear how you did it, as well! It must have been a tough thing to do!

Hang in there - and feel free to 'vent' all you want - theres lots here who DO understand!

laura

SpilledCawfee
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   Posted 5/21/2005 2:25 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi everyone,
thank you so much for your responses I really appreciate it. I am currently being treated for anemia and am taking iron, but my energery level just doesnt stay in place. I have been anemic since birth so all the doctors pretty much do the same thing, altho this time my doc put me on weekly procrit shots and 3 iron pills a day, before I went to him I was bad and wasnt taking any iron, and started having dizzy spells and some vertigo. He has helped and my hemoglobin levels rose some but I am still below what is supposed to be standard. The next possible step is for my gyn to stop my periods for a few months, but we are still discussing that. It's just fustrating cus I see others with all this energy and I have none and I feel bad that I never get one thing acomplished.

For the weight loss, I had weight loss surgery a couple of years ago. I know some people think thats the easy way out but there's nothing easy about deciding to do that and gettin up on that table. I had a slight complication (which healed) but I would do it again and again because it has helped the quality of my health overall. So I consider that to be a sucess.

I have thought about the ADD thing (yes laura I am female), cuz this inability to stay focused has been occuring the last year or so. But I feel like that would just be one more thing to talk to my doc about and one more thing that may require meds. I think I am just resenting the fact that it's always something and I just want to get over all of it and go climb a mountain or somethin. God forbid someone should ring my doorbell, they would be attacked by life sized dust bunnies. Who are these people that fling themselves out of bed at like 5 am and do like 500 things in one day and have spotless houses and clear minds? How come I wasnt on that line for that stuff?

thanks again guys.

Dognut
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   Posted 5/21/2005 2:42 PM (GMT -7)   
"God forbid someone should ring my doorbell, they would be attacked by life sized dust bunnies."

LOL - with me, it's not dust - it's dog hair! I tell everyone,"when there's enough hair balls rolling around that it looks like Fizzy had puppies, That's when I know it's time to vaccuum!" Well, Fizzy has had quite a few 'litters' that have been roaming the house for months now, I think ......

laura

purplecrayon
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   Posted 5/22/2005 6:44 AM (GMT -7)   
Hi Cawfee,

Just thought I'd throw in my 2 cents. Your post could mirror my life in many ways. But I don't want you to feel like you are giving in if you go on meds. Your taking a bg step to feeling better. When I finally made the decision to go and started to tell my family and close friends I was surprised to find out I wasn't the first.

And I too am anemic. I need to take iron pills everyday. At my last checkup my dr said if my iron was any lower they would have to take me to the hospital in an ambulance.

Its tough going dn the road to recovery. Admitting that you need help to take care of your body and mind. It still takes ALOT for me to push myself out and be more social. I like people but I am so out of practice. But at least road is taking me somewhere. Standing still was much worse.

Take care of yourself and keep posting. You are in good company.

purplecrayon

SpilledCawfee
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   Posted 5/24/2005 4:27 PM (GMT -7)   
thanks again guys for your support.

I'm wondering if I should go to a psychologist or psychiatrist first?

AlwaysRosie
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   Posted 5/25/2005 2:03 AM (GMT -7)   
If you get a referral from your doc, you will be startin with someone who he/she trusts. It's nice to know someone who knows the counselor. If your doc is prescribing the anti-d, then a psychologist will do fine. The psychiatrist and prescribe meds and is a licensed doctor.
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sk8
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   Posted 5/28/2005 7:24 PM (GMT -7)   

I am sitting here reading all of these responses to your depression and lack of energy.  I can relate to everything you say, not because I suffer from depression but at the age of 31 my husband was started on paxil and after 6 years he say a doctor who thought that he had ADD and put him on ritalin. 

PLEASE all of you who are taking any antidepressants, look into all of the side effects, take the meds correctly and make sure that you follow up with your doctors. 

My husband committed suicide 3 weeks ago leaving behind a 4 1/2 year old daughter and a 1 1/2 year old daughter.

Depression is a debilitatin illness and even when you are feeling well and everyone around you feels that you are feeling well things can change in the blink of an eye.  All I can say is seek out help whenever you feel that you need to.  Any time life is too much, don't feel that it is nothing, call someone.  Believe me you have no idea how many people care about you, people that you would never think of!

Stephanie


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Teri16
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   Posted 5/28/2005 7:42 PM (GMT -7)   
Stephanie, I am so very sorry for the loss of your husband!! My heart goes out to you and your daughters.

You are absolutely right about reaching out to others and calling someone! There is always someone there that will be more than happy to hear from you and care enough to want to help you. Thank you!

I'm glad that you are here and had the wisdom and thoughtfulness to come here and share your story!-hopefully this will help someone else. Are you doing alright yourself??

Please feel free to come here and share whatever you'd like.

My condolences to you and your family, with my thoughts and prayers going out to you, hugs, Teri
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   Posted 5/30/2005 12:28 PM (GMT -7)   
I really hope you are doing okay, Stephanie!! Please know that my thoughts are with you always...Hugs, Teri
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Cloudy30
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   Posted 5/30/2005 8:54 PM (GMT -7)   
The posting about lack of energy and motivation I can very much relate to.  My psychologist and psychiatrist have been consulting together and think if my energy was up I would be more likely to do more.  So I was put on aderroll (might be mispelled) it is used for kids that have ADD to slow them down but for adults it is suppose to increase their energy.  I have taken it a couple of days and during the day I feel okay but in the afternoons it feels like I just drank a pot of coffee my eyes are open but I feel like I am in a daze. I want to take a nap my eyes are open but mentally I just want to go to sleep.
 
Since the depression has hit hard the last 3 years it has been very hard to stay active and be social.  I have had to push myself a lot to take little steps.  It is a struggle to get back into life when I have isolated myself for what seems a long time. A part of me feels very defeated and I know that is a part that I need to overcome.  It seems like I used to be someone who when she fell she would get back and try again.... that is not so much the truth anymore. I get tired of trying sometimes.
 
I am in an uncomfortable spot right now.  I feel so torn up inside. I don't feel so optimistic about life I so wish I did.  I just hang on every day.  I hope that someday this cloud will lift and I will learn to cope with all of this because this depression feels so painful and empty sometimes. Just having a hard time this evening.  I know this will pass.  I see my therapist tomorrow.
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