I have been reading some of the newest posts, and can relate very well to some of you who are experiencing a new diagnosis, you may be afraid to start taking meds. There is anxiety and despair. For those of you who read my first post(which was 4 days into my diagnosis and started Lexapro) I can tell you that this is working. I am not solely relying on the meds, I am talking about my illness (siezure,depression) ALOT to close friends and family. But I also found a little trick that is keeping my mind off of some of the deeply desperate images and ideas that would pop up in my head.......I have made a list of very small goals. It may sound really ridiculous, but this list of 4 goals keeps me moving now daily.
I know it is hard to even want to take a shower when you feel so low. The "upkeep" on your body alone (brushing teeth, washing hair, eating) can be a tremendous burden. The Lexapro has created a strange bit of energy, I am not lethargic and I am sleeping again.
Ok, so here are the small goals that I have commited to daily;
1. Make myself walk 6 minutes. 6 minutes is nothing.But to the depressed- it is a chore. But I am doing it.6 minutes for now.
2. I am making myself have one meal everyday that is a salad, because if I do not, I will either eat junk or nothing at all.My weight fluctuates and that makes me more depressed.
3. Compliance to the Lexapro , taking the same dose at the same time every day. (This should have been #1-sorry)
4. If I am going to keep going into work- I am going to make sure that I keep myself focused on each task-one task at a time- so my mind does not wander (the crying begins when my mind wanders)I also work with some pretty demanding people.
I do not know if this sound silly, or too cheery. It shouldnt. I am not cheerful. I am just trying to keep my mind out of the darkness.