Hello scaredy cat, thank you for the reply. Pancreatitas is a very scary thing to live with, I remember once right after I had my son and I was barely 17 years old I had pancreatitas bad one night and I just had to go the ER even though my dad, who was taking care of me and my son at the time, had to work very early the next morning. Well I felt bad keeping my dad awake and the doctors where freaked out and wanted me to start antibiotics through an IV right away and I told them no, I had to go home...WELL the doctor freaked out and literally told me straight up that I was gonna die if I go home, and he yelled this at me. At the time I was upset that the doctor yelled at me but at the time I didnt realize how serious it was(so i let them give me the meds just cause i was scared of the doctor LOL). Well my dad of course wasnt mad at me, he even came home early form work to take of my son so I could rest. And its been like this off and on for 7 years now and the only thing doctors can do is put me on pain medicine for chronic pain, and I take ALOT cause over the years I have gotten immune to them and that also of course makes me way more depressed. When ever I think I can maybe start tapering from my meds I get something else, now about a month ago I was diagnosed with fibromyalgia, they think it was cause of a very bad car accident I was in on may '04, I was hit by someone doing 55mph and I was stopped(and she had 4 kids in a '90 camry under the age of 6 and had no carseats). And since then I started getting back pain, then it just seemed to go thru out my whole body, so that makes me more depressed. I'm glad I have a great pain specialist that doesnt judge people by age but by pain. And I really wanna feel normal, happy, have energy to do fun things with my kids before I miss out on the fun years while they're still very young and wanna hang out with mommy. Luckly my finance has been as supportive as he can, he doesnt understand alot about what I suffer from but he still wants to take care of me and he's so willing to learn about conditions. AGAIN, im sorry i'm rambling on, Im nervous at the moment cause my fiance is driving 9 hours from utah to washington in the night and that makes me not able to sleep LOL. WE have such big plans for the weekend too and I'm sooo excited, it'll be good for me to get out, I'm gonna surprise my kids with a trip to the space needle tomorrow, they have never even seen it before. Well I hope to hear from you guys again.
I really to plan to start my medicine on monday night, no matter what, I'm hoping if any weird side effects show up, you people will be here for me. WELL happy 4th of July everyone.