Might Lose My Job

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hw_chelsi
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Date Joined Feb 2003
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   Posted 7/16/2005 1:45 PM (GMT -7)   
I am ready to give up.  I have fought as hard as I can and as long as I could.  My situation is not getting any better.  In fact I look to lose my job soon.  I meet weekly with my supervisor.  We met on Friday.  She told me she didnt have much except a few pieces of mail that I gave the manager that were clearly not hers.  The manager said she did not show them to me because she is tired of doing so so just does it herself.  Well, she has never shown me any piece of mail that was not hers except maybe once.  Then there was the error of putting 04 (for the year) on the top of the file folder instead of 05.  I fail to see the signigance on this one.  Yes, it was a stupid little error but to start complaining and making a big deal about it?  My supervisor said that the end of my 30 days-end of month, she, her supervisor (in another branch office) and HR in our home office will get together and discuss my errors, the frequence and severity of them and go from there.  She told me there still some errors that I was making.  It is like so????????? She even told me in an email that she expected my work to be error free.  Unless I am God I do not see that happening.  Then I have to find a new t sooner than I planned.  She wants me to find someone new now but when I go in next week I am going to take her a letter and tell her that I do not want to leave right now.  Don't want to see a new t and then find a job and have that person not be on my plan and have to start over.  I hope she will work with me other wilse I am likely to quit for now and maybe never go back.
 
I dont hold any hope anymore.  Why try?  I am just a failure in everything I do.  I am tired of it.
 
Chelsi

AlwaysRosie
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   Posted 7/16/2005 6:17 PM (GMT -7)   
*Rosie makes a conference call to Chelsi's manager and supervisor to tell them off for being so ridiculously perfectionistic with Chelsi. After pointing out all the mistakes the both the manager and the supervisor have made over the past week, Rosie reminds them that all of this supervision of Chelsi's work is unnecessary and unproductive. Rosie ends the call by telling them, "don't make me have to come down there!"*

Chelsi . . . I'm sorry you are having such a difficult time right now. What an awefull thing to be put through. I bet if someone followed your supervisor and your manager, they would find a fare share of errors as well.

I also hope your t is understanding about your need to wait a bit to make a change.

Hugs to you Chelsi!!

Blessings!
In His Grip,
AlwaysRosie          "We can't control the waves, but we can learn to surf!"
Psalms 139
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hw_chelsi
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Date Joined Feb 2003
Total Posts : 150
   Posted 7/17/2005 8:21 PM (GMT -7)   
Rosie,
 
I loved the begining of your post.  It made me smile!
 
I am sure my supervisor and the manager do make mistakes.  But noone checks up on them.  In fact several years ago when I was on probation I contacted our HR dept. in our Home Office.  I was basically told they were all behind my supervisor and that doing my best may not be good enough.  Sometimes I wonder what all she tells them.  To be honest, I believe my supervisor is stretching things.  She tells me things but has no proof to back it up.  Like she told me Friday that the manager brought some mail to her that I put in her mail folder that clearly were not hers.  She told my supervisor she did not bring the mail to me because she was tired of taking mail to me that was not hers.  Well, everything I put in her file has her name or adjuster # on it.  Well we meet weekly.  Friday we met and she said at the end of the 30 days they would all meet and decide on where to go from there.  She indicated that I was still making a few errors.  She did make a remark not too long ago about wanting my work to be error free.  Unless I am God, I dont see that happening.
 
As far as my t is concerned, I had planned to write her a letter and take to her this next Thur explaining my situation but what if she says no?  I cant handle that rejection.  It may very well be easier on me to just stop going til I find a job but then I run that risk that I may choose to never go back.
 
I am losing my temper at work and it is really scareing me.  I lose it at home but then noone is around.  I will just rant and rave.  The only person that has seen me is the receptionist and she got upset with me last Friday for getting so upset.  She says I needed to calm down.  She is right.  I dont want to lose my job because of that.
 
Sorry for ranting.
 
Chelsi

AlwaysRosie
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   Posted 7/17/2005 9:41 PM (GMT -7)   
Hugs for you Chelsi!

I hope your therapist can help you work though this one. I have a strong feeling that some regular exercise would really help here. It does several things for your body. It expends excess energy, but will give you some more useable energy. It helps us sleep better too. It can give our body some feel-good chemicals. Also, drinking lots of water can help even things out too. Believe it or not our bodies and brains are MUCH more efficient when we stay well hydrated.

You are not ranting sis, you are just trying to figure out a hard time in your life. I hoe this new week goes better for you. Keep us posted.

Blessings!
In His Grip,
AlwaysRosie          "We can't control the waves, but we can learn to surf!"
Psalms 139
UCTD (Undifferentiated Connective Tissue Disease), Hashimoto's, Plantar Fasciitis, Inflamatory Arthritis, High BP, GI Inflamation, Diverticuloses
Plaquenil, Methotrexate, Metanx, Synthroid, RX Motrin, Lexapro, Amitriptelyne, Salagen, Lotrel


CheerDad
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   Posted 7/18/2005 8:53 AM (GMT -7)   
Chelsi,

I don't know what kind of maintenance therapy you are on for your depression, I know that I would be a wreck if I didn't have outside professional help, but would recommend you find some help if you aren't already getting it. I know how you feel when you say that you are a failure at everythign you do, I have felt that way many times in the past. I now try and look at each day and find good things I have done and try not to define my life by a small set of circumstances. Here is a great big cyber hug for you ((((((((((Chelsi)))))))))). You can't be a total failure, you reached out to us for help right?
We can respond to irritation with a smile instead of scowl, or by giving warm praise instead of icy indifference. By our being understanding instead of abrupt, others, in turn, may decide to hold on a little longer rather than to give way. Love, patience, and meekness can be just as contagious as rudeness and crudeness.
 
Randy
 
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